Flashback question ***trigger warning- sexual abuse*****

[jen1976]

I am feeling ashamed and humiliated by the flashbacks and nightmares I am having at the moment. I physically feel the implements that were put into my body and other physical pain. I don’t know how to deal with this. I feel like a freak. I just need to know if anyone else has experienced this and how they handle it. I am also wetting myself a lot whenever I have a flashback or a nightmare. I’m sorry, I don’t mean to trigger anyone, but I really feel lost with this. I’m sorry.

 

[Beorn the Bear]

This is something you definitely need professional help with. Are you getting it?

 

[jen1976]

I am trying my best, but the situation I am in at the moment means any support is sporadic and unreliable. I don’t trust easily and am very embarrassed. I just feel totally on my own with this. Thank you for replying.

 

[Am33]

Nothing to be ever ashamed about its rough world . What I been taught and use to overcome my trauma is I had to go back as a adult and free that child that was hurt so bad . So you have to get strong first . I do positive affirmations for 1 hour you can find 60 positive affirmations for women on net . So after that I imagine the scene in my mind I now see now how its like a theatre play behind the backdrop there is nothing there I see myself then and the rest of characters I freeze the scene in my mind I take the the child by the hand and tell them its going to be alright . I see the people now as just characters in a play I imagine there is a very bright white light focused on them its melting them so all that remains is a pool of liquid then I take a mop and I clean up the liquid . I know this is hard the first time . the more you do this going back and doing this the easier it gets it has less and less pull on you .

 

[jen1976]

Thank you. I will try my very best to do that. At the moment I am willing to try pretty much anything positive.

 

[Zigazigah]

I am feeling ashamed and humiliated by the flashbacks and nightmares I am having at the moment. I physically feel the implements that were put into my body and other physical pain. I don’t know how to deal with this. I feel like a freak. I just need to know if anyone else has experienced this and how they handle it. I am also wetting myself a lot whenever I have a flashback or a nightmare. I’m sorry, I don’t mean to trigger anyone, but I really feel lost with this. I’m sorry.

Hi Jen.

I realise this isn’t a new thread and you might hopefully be feeling a little better than when you first wrote it but I just wanted you to know you’re not alone in feeling these things. I know how scary it can be. I haven’t got a proper handle on it all yet but I can say sometimes suffering from a dissociative disorder can be a real positive as I’m removed from situations where feeling things like this would otherwise be far worse. I believe they’re sensory flashbacks and there are some books out there that may be of some use to you. “The body remembers” being one that springs to mind. I think I’m allowed to mention book names here. I’m sure one of the mods will remove it for me if I’m not. I just wanted to reach out to you really.

Take care. X