- Dec 14, 2019
So i'm new here. I'm not really sure where to start with this. My parent's both suffer from anxiety and depression. I always knew I suffered from anxiety and I've definitely had my bouts of depression. I've never been to therapy or taken any medication, Anyways, I'm here because I've recently had a panic attack. I've always assumed the weird panic episodes I had before were anxiety attacks although to be honest, i've never done the research so i had no idea what the difference really was until a few weeks ago. I'd had what I would call a "good" day. Low stress at work. Bought myself some snacks on the way home and was looking forward to unwinding and watching youtube in my bed. I was alone and watching a show when all of a sudden my vision went fuzzy, it was the first thing I noticed. My face started tingling and I was so certain that I was about to die. I freaked out and luckily my mom happened to be around at the time. I sat with my head between my legs and cried while she rubbed my back. It helped having someone just touching me at the moment. I felt more grounded. Like i was still here and alive and I existed. I've still not worked up the nerve to see a doctor and right now I'm just living in fear of having another. I guess it threw me because I always imagined that I'd have to have a bad day or be thinking about stressful things when it would happen but I was calm, In my bed, relaxing. that's what scares me. Anyways if you're still reading this. thank you and I guess I'm just here because I want to know someone like me. I want to know I'm not alone on this.