- Jul 5, 2008
- Perth Western Australia
In september 2000 i was the victim of attempted murder, sexual assault, aggravated robbery & toucher. The incident lasted about 5 hours of repeated hell. When i woke up in the park the cops took me to hospital and with my bad relationship with health care workers(nurse&drs) i wasnt believed. I was treated poorly(putting politely). When ever i had flash backs of the incident the nurses would say things like "you werent raped and no we wont have sex with you" at the top of their voices so all the patients could hear. I was constantly mentally abused by drs and nurses and patients a like. All this mental abuse while i was trying to teach myself how to talk again. Any way it was said on my file that i got a copy of that i am a man of poor character, unreliable history and untrustworthy nature ect. Then a couple of years later i complained to the police commissioner and he sent police internal affairs and major crime squad to investigate as the said above attempted murder ect and said the offender had criminal form for everything he did to me. Then the mental health clinic i was going too diagnosed me with PTSD and gave me 5 sessions with a guy who was a student phycologist for PTSD counciling that was all the couniciling i have ever had. I have constant flashbacks everyday, they are most disturbing. The thing that i did to help heal myself was to return to study at collage it was a real hard thing to do i had to read the first sentence in my study books 20 times before i would understand what i was reading because of constant flashbacks. Now all these years latter i am still studying and haven't had a disabling panic attack in years. I know that the study i took was the occupational tool i used to heal my self by giving me a distraction and sense of accomplishment. I usually pass with high marks too which gives me a sense of pride. All these years latter i still cant sleep until dawn. When i do sleep i have a panic attack in my sleep and wake up this happens for hours before i finally nod off And when i do fall asleep i have terrifying nightmares. With all this on my mind and other violent crimes i have suffered and not believed by authorities i also have never had a relationship nad i have no friends i am alone and seriously depressed i fight suicide everyday, but i live for god. I thought i would tell you all this in the hope that if anyone else is suffering ptsd that they to collage and study part time i know that study will retrain and discipline your mind thus healing your soul.