- Feb 20, 2019
Hello guys, I'm new here. I'm 25 years old and recently i started feeling these weird emotions of sadness, anger and fear mixed together. I was always a smart kid and my parents and family expected great things from me. But i never lived up to those expectations because of my video games addiction in the way. It got me fat, got me less attractive in my eyes, and i created a barrier where i wouldn't go out so people who known me a long time wouldn't see me fat. It never bothered me, i always had a grasp of my emotions. I don't know what it was, one night i was watching a movie with my girlfriend and it just triggered a panic attack where i found myself thinking like oh my god nothing i do makes me happy and i can't think of anything that would please me. That lasted like an hour and went away, but it left a sad feeling that i can't shake off for 2 weeks now. I am a hypochondriac and i overthink everything to it's worst possible outcome so i have a fear that i would go insane or kill myself even though i have no suicidal thoughts i have a fear that i might have them some day because of my hypochondria. If anyone can share something or give mesome advice that can help me out it would be great. Thanks in advance!