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Feeling this world will never be right for me

KittyCat92

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I’ve spent the last few days in my own head. Probably the wrong thing to do given how I feel.

Part of me didn’t even want to stop. I was finding comfort in the deep dark places.

Maybe in doing so I’m no longer afraid of what I could do. No longer afraid of the demons.

They tell me over and over and over again that this world will never be right for me.

I’ve made two different plans of how to escape this pain. I almost carried one out today.

But I’m still here and I don’t know how I feel about that.
 
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KittyCat I'm sorry how your feeling but you know in your own mind the thoughts will pass and quickly so dont act out on the bad thoughts. Use the forum to help yourself, and you know I am here via pm if you want to let off steam or whatever.
 
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They may pass but all they’re replaced with is similar thoughts.
 
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You can get through this as your a strong person push those horrible thoughts away and talk and grow stronger each day as I think you can.
 
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What if I’m just too tired to even try?

I feel like I’m becoming more at peace with the demons in the dark than I am fighting to live.
 
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What if I’m just too tired to even try?

I feel like I’m becoming more at peace with the demons in the dark than I am fighting to live.
You might be tired but you can get throw this, I know about the demons and they are crap so dont act because of those you are a clever person who has a great love of your job and what you do plus you are great for members here too with you being so positive. Tell the demons to do one.
 
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Hi @KittyCat92

The thoughts you're having at the moment will pass.

We have thousands of thoughts each day. They pass by and we then think of something else. It happens through our life.

Speaking to someone in person can really help at times like this. Here are some numbers that might help.

If you’re thinking about suicide and are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number (i.e. in the UK call 999, in the USA or Canada call 911, in Australia call 000 and in New Zealand call 111) or call the international emergency number of 112.

If you have been affected by the contents of this thread and would like to speak to someone about your feelings you can call one of the following helplines:

In the UK and Ireland, the Samaritans can be contacted on 116 123.
In the US, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255.
In Canada, the Suicide Prevention Service on 1.833.456.4566.
In Australia, the crisis support service Lifeline is on 13 11 14.
In New Zealand, the Need to Talk service is on 1737 or 080017371737.
Other international helplines can be found at www.befrienders.org.

Our getting help web page may also be useful.


@calypso has written a great article that also might help:

 
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Hi KittyCat it is better to talk here in the open as with everyone who comments will put it in a different way to help you but the same, those bad thoughts will pass as we are all here for you.
That dark cloud will pass you just need to talk it out and believe me it will pass.
 
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What if I’m just too tired to even try?

I feel like I’m becoming more at peace with the demons in the dark than I am fighting to live.
Can you get outside for some fresh air and a walk?
It is raining here but still warm.
That really helps me.
It sounds stupid but i just walk to the shop and buy a Bounty or something nice.
One day at a time Kitty
 
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Ignore the demons, go into the light. Don't give up on yourself or your life--you have so much to give and people love you
 
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The last words my therapist ever said to me were my name and then, DON'T GIVE UP ON GIVING UP. I also saw a member on here had it said to him too so it does work.
 
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