Just a bit of a weepy evening. I'm tired because my "work" load is a bit bigger than normal. I don't work, I do voluntary work and I really enjoy it because it makes a big difference to my community and I'm good at and I get a load of support from the men I work with (hardly any women in their job at the level I work). Someone senior has upset me and I have no comeback against him (it's a bit like trying to sue God), another person in a similar field (who I see at committee meetings all the time) is bullying me in a subtle way and, even though I've discussed it with the a guy who work with who I'm really close to I'm still finding it hard - the effect goes beyond me and into the community so it's really stupid of this bully. I went over to see someone earlier and it's - here's a problem will you sort it out. I'm thinking does anyone one actually see a person when they look at me or just this incredibly efficient fix it machine? I've gone past angry and I just want to eat chocolate and sleep.