- Apr 8, 2020
- New England
I m sitting here just looking around my pc then all of a sudden i get so depressed.Why who the hell knows. I post in a celebraties forum all i ever get is i had to edit your post for what i was paying my favorite actress a compliment,he is such an idiot no wonder nobody talks to him,I have deleted that stupid forum of his.U cant say a word and everything gets editied. How can paying someone a compliment be bad? He even deleted two new posts i put up because it was already used oh come on get real.I am not going back there what good is a forum if u cant say what u want. I am not a violent or mean or even rude person. I just give my opinion and it gets deleted. HOwever it has been more then that.This morning i just broke down and cried .I get like this sometimes.I suppose having bipolar, depression anxieties panic attacks and a mood disorder can really mess u up.I do take my meds but sometimes just like anything else they dont work,the breathing doesnt help me either.I am just so tired i didnt sleep at all last night,Depression is a ,lot like anxieties sometimes they cn hit you just like that ,sometimes u have a appetite and other times u dont heck i get very depressed when my anxieties are bad i guess it stems from being afraid.I feel so confused i am seeing shadow images to once in awhile my doctor told me it is from anxieties. They arent scray just confusing.I miss my grandchildren since i havent seen them since Feb and my mom oh my god u dont know how much i need to talk to her,if she answers me i could be in trouble. Sometimes i just cry myself to sleep.