- Dec 20, 2019
I am a 30 year old male, never had a girlfriend and a virgin. I am decent looking and don't suffer from social anxiety, although I am a bit shy. I live in Surrey, BC, and find it hard to meet people here. There are no clubs or activities that I can find where I could meet women my age to date or have sex. I have obsessive sexual thoughts that are making me feel extremely anxious and depressed, and I feel like nobody understands what I am going through. These thoughts are driving me crazy, and I often turn to using alcohol or heroin for temporary relief. I feel like I have a problem with using heroin, and I tend to use compulsively. I find it easy to make friendships with other guys my age and even some women my age, but I feel like its impossible for me to develop relationships with women. I have had few to no opportunities to kiss or have sex with women. I want to move out of Surrey, BC, because I feel like I might have better luck elsewhere finding women who actually respect me and understand what I am going through. I feel so lonely and depressed most days, and often have thoughts of ending my life.