- Mar 2, 2019
So lately I’ve been in a good mood, social, etc. But I’ve been pushing my bf away like no other. I’m remembering things he said in the past that really hurt. I’m in that “I don’t care, I don’t need you” mood. But I don’t want to be! Because I KNOW I’ll super regret it. I want to feel close and loved and loving and secure. But I don’t feel it right now. Our connection feels empty like I’m just tolerating him. I know this hurts him and I hate that. I feel like I could use a good cry lol. Whatever it is I think it’s rooted in “he doesn’t like me enough” and so in my head I’m like “I don’t like him that much”. But I know I love him very much. Advice please before I mess up. He’s my true love Even though he’s eclectic and confusing and so stubborn I could scream lol.