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Not The Best
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I haven't been feeling good these days, my mood is really low. I've been feeling a little lonely and anxious too. When my mood is low any little things can make me feel worse. I had planned something this week but when something unrailed them and it didn't happen that made me feel bad, especially when I was looking forward to it.
When I get low like this I like to spend money to make myself feel better. I get a nice feeling shopping online and buying a lot of nice and cool stuff. And I feel good when it arrives too. But I buy it expecting it will take away my sad feelings and when they don't I get frustrated and angry at myself for having bought stuff I'm lucky enough to afford but I'm still feeling sad. That can usually lead me into looking for something more to buy just so I can feel a little uplift again.
I had a fight with my friend yesterday too when she said that because I'm a boy I have an easier life than her and any other girl, purely because I'm a boy. That made me angry.
I'm not really sure what to do to feel happy anymore. It's hard when I get into a mood where everything that usually makes me feel good doesn't work. I like writing books and songs but when I feel this way they are never as good as I want them to be, so it becomes a negative. Everything becomes a negative
When I get low like this I like to spend money to make myself feel better. I get a nice feeling shopping online and buying a lot of nice and cool stuff. And I feel good when it arrives too. But I buy it expecting it will take away my sad feelings and when they don't I get frustrated and angry at myself for having bought stuff I'm lucky enough to afford but I'm still feeling sad. That can usually lead me into looking for something more to buy just so I can feel a little uplift again.
I had a fight with my friend yesterday too when she said that because I'm a boy I have an easier life than her and any other girl, purely because I'm a boy. That made me angry.
I'm not really sure what to do to feel happy anymore. It's hard when I get into a mood where everything that usually makes me feel good doesn't work. I like writing books and songs but when I feel this way they are never as good as I want them to be, so it becomes a negative. Everything becomes a negative