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lam19803
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This is the last place I felt I could turn. I am a 37 years old female. I deal with bipolar 1 disorder on a daily basis. And I also deal with avoidant personality disorder. Along with ADD. And terrible anxiety.
I do take meds as well. And I have had counseling in the past. I also deal with a bunch of physical health problems as well. I have tracheal stenosis. Which is a life long chronic respiratory disease. I also have aortic valve stenosis.
Due to congenital heart defect. And I have had multiple surgeries on my throat to open it up. And I'm getting ready to need a heart valve replacement. And it's coming fast like with in 2 months or less. And my mother is having a hard time accepting it.
When I first started having physical health problems. My mother tried to tell me it was all in my head. Because of the mental health stuff. And I kept telling her I know my own body something is wrong. And then I got to where I almost started believing her.
Maybe it is all in my head. But it was not. So anyway to make a long story short. She almost is in denial about me needing this heart valve replacement. And she almost can't accept it. And she is so worried about what could happen during and after the surgery. That in her mind it's better if I just don't have it. And she doesn't realize if I didn't have it.
I would eventually go into heart fauiler and then die. Because the heart valve is in the severe stage. And it's like beating my heard against the wall to try to make her understand. And doctors do not sugar Cote. And she can hear one bad thing. And she just can't take it. She has also mentioned getting a 3rd opinion. When I have some of the best doctors In the country. But it's because she is in denial.
I'm just at a point where I don't know how to deal with her. And I'm the one going through all of this. But now it's been made all about her. Because she can't deal with the fact that I need heart valve replacement. I'm getting so tired and weary. I'm almost to the point of saying screw it. And just not having the surgery to begin with.
But I know if I didn't I would not make it to many years. Also my mother has always thought my physical health is not near as bad as it actually is. And I have anger issues at her anyway for things she has done in my life. And she is one of those people that think mentally ill people have a low IQ. Or that mental illness has to do with how smart you are. Also I'm 37 but she treats me like I'm 16. And she has my while adult life. Just need to know how to get through to her.
I do take meds as well. And I have had counseling in the past. I also deal with a bunch of physical health problems as well. I have tracheal stenosis. Which is a life long chronic respiratory disease. I also have aortic valve stenosis.
Due to congenital heart defect. And I have had multiple surgeries on my throat to open it up. And I'm getting ready to need a heart valve replacement. And it's coming fast like with in 2 months or less. And my mother is having a hard time accepting it.
When I first started having physical health problems. My mother tried to tell me it was all in my head. Because of the mental health stuff. And I kept telling her I know my own body something is wrong. And then I got to where I almost started believing her.
Maybe it is all in my head. But it was not. So anyway to make a long story short. She almost is in denial about me needing this heart valve replacement. And she almost can't accept it. And she is so worried about what could happen during and after the surgery. That in her mind it's better if I just don't have it. And she doesn't realize if I didn't have it.
I would eventually go into heart fauiler and then die. Because the heart valve is in the severe stage. And it's like beating my heard against the wall to try to make her understand. And doctors do not sugar Cote. And she can hear one bad thing. And she just can't take it. She has also mentioned getting a 3rd opinion. When I have some of the best doctors In the country. But it's because she is in denial.
I'm just at a point where I don't know how to deal with her. And I'm the one going through all of this. But now it's been made all about her. Because she can't deal with the fact that I need heart valve replacement. I'm getting so tired and weary. I'm almost to the point of saying screw it. And just not having the surgery to begin with.
But I know if I didn't I would not make it to many years. Also my mother has always thought my physical health is not near as bad as it actually is. And I have anger issues at her anyway for things she has done in my life. And she is one of those people that think mentally ill people have a low IQ. Or that mental illness has to do with how smart you are. Also I'm 37 but she treats me like I'm 16. And she has my while adult life. Just need to know how to get through to her.