feeling like a horrible person...

[ocdlolcow]

I've done so many horrible things in the past... I think about what I've done 24/7 7/7. I can't really get away from it. I've been forgiven by the people I hurt but there are some things that I've done that can't be forgiven by anyone. I feel like life really isn't worth living anymore. Everyone thinks I'm such a great person but I'm really not. I don't know what to do. I want to help people. I want to make people happy but I feel like it doesn't count or I'm being fake because I've been bad in the past. I've so many things on my plate. I'm gonna explode.
I'm distancing myself from everyone again. I can't talk to them. I feel like I need to be completely isolated from everyone so no one finds out how evil I am. My paranoia tells me to do so. What if people can read my mind and run to tell everyone I'm evil? I need to stay away from people.

 

[Fairy Lucretia]

welcome x you are NOT evil i would be willing to bet a lot of money on it x you are poorly x
and if you have done some bad things it isn't too late to change and do good things
even just by helping people on here i find that helps me feel like im trying to do something worthwhile and good

when we are unwell it is easy to think badly of ourselves but im sure you ARE a good person
love Lu x

 

[treasurebox]

Your past does not define you. Forget the past. It will not help you to remember the past. Move on. Do the most good. Help someone and do something new. Listen to good, encouraging, and uplifting songs on youtube. You deserve to be happy. Your Maker made you to be happy and enjoy life.