- Mar 18, 2015
i KNOW AM intelligent i had to be to graduate from college. i just don't feel attractive at least my mother makes ME feel like that. because i am not thin she thinks that i should wear fat clothes. i try to get shoes and clothes that wont makes me look so fat but its seems like she wants ME to wear big ass clothes and flat doopy ass grandma looking shoes. i want to get open toed shoes but she is hell bent of not getting them for me. i know this thread may seems stupid and childish but it really depresses me because i don't have a job and cant buy the things that i want when i want. I be so glad when i loss weigh then maybe i can feel better about myself more. but right now am just a fat ugly person who is at the mercy of her equally FAT MISERABLE MOTHER. Sometimes i don't want to eat at times because i am disgusted at my appearance. I feel like just not eating shit period./ Maybe if i don't eat much myself i lose the weight a lot quicker and get rid of my ugly double chin and fat ass stomach. i really want to throw up when i look at myself in the mirror. THAT'S IT FROM THIS DAY FORWARD AM NOT GOING TO EAT MUCH, JUST DRINK LIQUIDS AND EAT SALADS ....
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