- Jan 16, 2019
Friends - few are reliable, right. People are busy with their own lives, and don't make the same amount of time as I would for them. I am a 'gallon' person, they're often pint people.I hate when people say they know exactly how it feels so I’ll just say I can really relate to your feelings of being empty and confused. I don’t really know what the best process is for overcoming this, but it definitely doesn’t hurt to make/ hang with friends and try to stay busy. Definitely try not to go internal too much and focus as much as possible on what’s going on around you. I’m guilty of pushing people away when I start feeling weird and I think it just causes more confusion and dark thoughts as you put it. Glad you’re seeing your psychiatrist and hope you work your way out of this!
I hate depending on others. So nowadays I try to enjoy my own company as much as possible. Posting on here, at least, makes me feel less alone.
I believe there's only so much psychiatrists and therapists can do. We have to love ourselves and make changes to our lifestyle for ourselves. That's what I'm trying to do, bite the bullet, and be strong. Sure, I feel weak, but so long as I stay focussed on myself, I'm doing well. I usually live too much for others, give too much to others, it's a curse in a way. People don't get this, unless they have this characteristic. Some people just neglect themselves for others, I'm trying to unlearn this