Feeling extremely empty and low

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I feel like I don't know who I am, I've just been hit by the emptiness of everything. Emptiness inside of me.
I feel alone in this world. I don't know who I am or what I want. I really have no clue of who is really me. And I feel empty. I don't have anything to work towards anymore. Everything feels dead, I take no pleasure in things. I just feel disconnected from the world. Everything feels dead and corrupted. I'm afraid of people, I'm afraid of the world, I'm afraid of myself. I feel intense anxiety but also emptiness Please someone help me
 
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I have no other option but to stay alive. But I can't see the good in life
 
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this is such a cliche
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where there is life there is hope
things do improve for people and im sure they will for you
sending loads of hugs and cuddles
Lu x
 
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this is such a cliche
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where there is life there is hope
things do improve for people and im sure they will for you
sending loads of hugs and cuddles
Lu x
Thank you.
I hope things improve, though I can't really see how right now
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Do you have support and professional help ? X
 
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Do you have support and professional help ? X
Not seeing my psychiatrist until 9 days time. To be fair I feel ashamed to see her and tell her how low I have been because I was doing so well up until now but now all the confusion's come back and I feel lost again.
I'll see my talking therapist in a few days too but to be honest I'm just finding the therapy sessions harrowing atm, talking over bad situations.
I'm basically up shit creek at the moment due to a number of bad situations I'm living with.
 
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It's down to me to take control and get myself out of this rut but you know when everything just feels truly pointless.
 
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Its not all down to you,others can help as well.
I'm pleased to hear you are going to get to see your pdoc in 9 days tell her exactly how it is.
Recovery is often a bumpy road. Its better to let her know things are that rough.
Do you write things down like how you're feeling,
Thinking of you
 
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I feel like I don't know who I am, I've just been hit by the emptiness of everything. Emptiness inside of me.
I feel alone in this world. I don't know who I am or what I want. I really have no clue of who is really me. And I feel empty. I don't have anything to work towards anymore. Everything feels dead, I take no pleasure in things. I just feel disconnected from the world. Everything feels dead and corrupted. I'm afraid of people, I'm afraid of the world, I'm afraid of myself. I feel intense anxiety but also emptiness Please someone help me
Hi

I'm so sorry that you feel this way. Honestly you have just perfectly described exactly how I feel and I know how debilitating it can be. I think the best thing to do is acknowledge it and that it is from poor attachment if you have BPD like myself and you probably weren't encouraged to find out your identity. I think you should allow yourself to feel sad about this but also know that there are different techniques to help you manage and cope. Trust me, I phoned my therapist about this feeling today because it overwhelmed me. It is awful. If you want to chat more about how we could both kinda work out how to manage then please reply to me.
I truly feel for you
Nat
 
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Hi

I'm so sorry that you feel this way. Honestly you have just perfectly described exactly how I feel and I know how debilitating it can be. I think the best thing to do is acknowledge it and that it is from poor attachment if you have BPD like myself and you probably weren't encouraged to find out your identity. I think you should allow yourself to feel sad about this but also know that there are different techniques to help you manage and cope. Trust me, I phoned my therapist about this feeling today because it overwhelmed me. It is awful. If you want to chat more about how we could both kinda work out how to manage then please reply to me.
I truly feel for you
Nat
Thanks for your message.
Yep, was never encouraged to find out my identity.
Basically just can feel lost quite frequently
. I guess I'm one of those people who always has dark thoughts haha, they might go away for a while but they come back with a vengeance.
I'm also starting to obsess over my unattractiveness, might get plastic surgery
 
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I hate when people say they know exactly how it feels so I’ll just say I can really relate to your feelings of being empty and confused. I don’t really know what the best process is for overcoming this, but it definitely doesn’t hurt to make/ hang with friends and try to stay busy. Definitely try not to go internal too much and focus as much as possible on what’s going on around you. I’m guilty of pushing people away when I start feeling weird and I think it just causes more confusion and dark thoughts as you put it. Glad you’re seeing your psychiatrist and hope you work your way out of this!
 
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Thanks for your message.
Yep, was never encouraged to find out my identity.
Basically just can feel lost quite frequently
. I guess I'm one of those people who always has dark thoughts haha, they might go away for a while but they come back with a vengeance.
I'm also starting to obsess over my unattractiveness, might get plastic surgery
I'm sorry to hear that...it's incredibly difficult but you can, with the right help, overcome these things. People would say that to me and it would annoy me but it's not my intention to annoy you with that. I just know from personal experience that it takes time, committment and effort to find out who you are and to learn all the coping mechanisms that you should have been taught as a child (same for myself). It sucks having to do this as an adult lol. I'm sorry to hear you are struggling with your self image. That must be really tough on top of everything else.
 

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