- Jul 4, 2020
- New York
Before quarantine, I was finally on track with eating a healthy amount of calories a day and losing a consistent 2lbs a week. I used to struggle with harsh restrictive eating as well as binge eating, so being able to comfortably lose weight was a big thing for me. I always got triggered by counting calories in the past bit this time I was confident I would stay headstrong. Thanks to quarantine i’m rather sad to say I’ve reverted on all of my progress. Its been incredibly hard to not binge eat all day when i’m home alone. I’ve been struggling with a back and forth of restricting some days and binging others. This is all so frustrating for me because I was finally headed towards my goal which is all gone now. I know I can just count calories at home and do at-home workouts, but the depression of being home every single day is wearing me down. On top of all of this, one of my best friends has been losing weight rapidly with no real reason. They swear its because of their new job, but they’ve managed to lose over 50 lbs, and it has been incredibly triggering for me to stand by and watch her waste away while i can’t stop eating. I feel so selfish and awful for being jealous of how she looks, but I’m at a loss. she knows of my history with eating disorders and has never displayed symptoms like this in the 4-5 years i’ve been friends with her. She denies that she skips meals or counts calories at all, so I really can’t be certain of her methods.. Anyone in a similar situation? Triggering friends and an unproductive, depressing environment stopping you from making healthy progress? Any help or words of support would be much appreciated, I feel extremely alone with my issue as she’s my only real friend and I can’t talk to her about this.