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nicros
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Hi I have had a really bad year this year it has been one thing after another deaths and serious illnessess in our family and my sister attempted suicide and was sectioned. Anyway my OH a teacher has been off now since feb and has had an opp and has a trapped nerve in his groin so is waiting for a nerve block so he can hopefully get back to school. I am a homemaker with 2 kids at primary school. I suffer from GAD and have recently been depressed with this year of one trauma after another. anyway the thing is I have animals to get me out of my anxiety I have 2 caveys and 2 rabbits and a 2 year old girl lurcher who is my life line atm. The thing is I desperately want a puppy and have been completely consumed by this for weeks now. I have no mum and little family and I 'need ' to have one to hold and focus on and the kids have had such a bad year too we are all desperate for one except my OH who says no! When I write this down it sounds selfish of me but I have never had such a need, I know it will be hard work but I have the time and room for one and I am so desperate for one after such a terrible year. I think that life is too short and so what if we have a few accidents and sleepless nights the joy they bring is 10 fold. I have seen exactly the one I have been looking for for months now and its affordable and up the road. I feel like I have looked after everyone this year especially my OH and I have only asked for this and the answer from him is 'no'. I just don't know how to get past this over- whelming feeling of needing to mother a pup, I am starting the peri-menopause too so feel so maternal but cannot have anymore kids, please help with suggestions sorry to go on, thanks Nicola 




