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Lincoln1990

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I don't feel right. Im suicidal and ready to die. But I'm at work so can't do anything. It's obvious very few on here would even care. I'm not guilting anyone with this, its the fact. And Sue won't email back. I'm feeling very abandoned. On one of my hardest days, she chooses not to email back. This might be just a bad day to some, but this is the worst day in a very long time.

I'm ready to die. It's time.
 
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I'm sorry you're feeling so close to doing something bad.:hug1:

Is it normal for Sue to sometimes take a while to reply to you? Do you have a phone number for her at all?
Also am sorry that you feel abandoned. I'm sure there is an explanation as to why she hasn't responded to you yet and i'm sure it's nothing personal. I know it's hard when people aren't always there for you when you need them.

In a way i'm glad you're at work in a way, because that means that at least your safe for the time being.
 
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want to die. ready to die. sorry everyone for wanting to die. Im not going to do something but I really need to
 
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I might as well be dead
 
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I might as well be dead
I don't think so - I think it's really important that you're alive, I really do.

Is there anyone you can talk to offline that would help?
I'm sorry if it's a bit quiet on the forum at the moment - it's not to say that people don't care, it's just lots of people are offline. I will be going to bed soon but I want to leave you with hugs and say that I hope that you can find some peace and distraction from your bad thoughts.
You've had a really rough time, haven't you? I don't know, but i'm guessing it's brought up lots of painful memories and emotions for you. That's why it's extra important that you're nice to yourself, and do little things that might make you feel better. x
 
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It's ok. I know what's important.

I have no one but I will get by. I wi try texting Sue again.

I'm sick of being put on the backburner like I always am everywhere. I shouldn't expect any more than that. This is not to say I blame anybody for my actions or the way I feel. I know I've bwen supported today and I guess after awhile people are sick of me. Time differences suck.

I want to move away. Pack everything up, cut contact with everyone, stop coming on here. I just need space.

It's all my fault and I deserve no replies.
 
Lincoln1990

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That's all she fucking suggests "if you are not safe go to the hospital". Fuck it. I needed support but it's evident I can't depend on anyone. I will do my own thing from now on. Don't care anymore. Done.
 
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