Feel Like I'm Going Insane

[Amy123]

I have anxiety with obsessive thoughts once something pops into my head I can't seem to get it out. Often this takes the form of health anxiety. I'm constantly checking my body over and over looking for anything out of the ordinary and then I convince myself I have cancer. Or a few weeks ago I accidentally bumped a car pulling into a parking spot. Barely any damage just some scratched paint but the entire day I obsessed over this and kept returning to the car I hit to look at it. I couldn't sleep that night and every time my phone rang I worried it was the driver calling me. I convinced myself it was going to be thousands worth of damage. Finally two weeks later and no phone call and I've been able to calm down and not constantly worry about this.

A few days ago the idea of being transgender popped into my head. I think it's important to note that a family is transitioning from female to male and I often hear about them. Also the other day on youtube a video of someone talking about their transition popped up in my recommendation box and out of curiosity I clicked it and saw a little. I'm essentially one hundred percent certain I'm not. I've never had any thoughts about this and even now my thoughts aren't about wanting to be another sex but I'm worrying that I'll develop thoughts about wanting to be another sex. So last night I had a panic attack about this and was hardly able to get any sleep. I'm feeling a bit better this morning but I can't seem to shake these thoughts.

It's like my brain has to obsess and worry about everything even if it doesn't apply to me. I'm satisfied with being a woman but now I keep overanalyzing every little thing in my entire life trying to see if maybe I am transgender. But I know deep down that I'm not. I don't think I could be further from it. I dream about becoming a mother one day to be able to experience pregnancy and breastfeeding. I love my body. So why are these thoughts popping into my head?

Are these thoughts I'm experiencing normal or do only transgender individuals experience these thoughts? I've had weird and bizarre thoughts before but usally I'm able to shake them more quickly then I've been able to shake this. It just doesn't make any sense why I would even be thinking about this.

 

[Brigita]

I’ve had plenty of these kind of thoughts, none of them were true. Normally it tends to stick around longer if the idea scares you for some reason.
Just let them come and try not too focus on it too much, it seems like you’re obsessing because those thoughts scare you.

 

[Fairy Lucretia]

hi ,I just wanted to welcome you to the forum x lots of love Lu xxx

 

[sadgirl]

Hi and welcome to the forum please feel free to look around and post whenever you can.
I wouldn't be too worried about these thoughts I'd just let them come and go without worrying about them otherwise you will be stressed out and anxious over things that aren't really going to happen

 

[ChrisAUK]

I know exactly what you mean, my brain ruthlessly obsesses on the smallest pain or ache in my body which then trigger off symptoms such as rapid heart rate, sweating, more pains and severe shaking!

I normally try and distract my brain by doing something i love, such as painting warhammer miniatures (Yep, geeky as hell) or playing a video game or even the gym.

I cant relate to your exact thoughts but just know that other people constantly obsess about a multitude of different things.

 

[Milomushi]

I also really struggle with obsessive thinking. I often tell people about the example of leaving my house after using the oven. I know that I turned it off and I can see myself doing it but there is still a worry that I didn't turn it off. As I drive away from the house I picture the house burning down and it feels like the only way to stop worrying is to turn around and drive back to check the oven.