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Bobbyewing

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I just feel my life is shit.
I teach but am mediocre.
No real achievement in my life.
I'm over weight and I have an issue controlling my drinking.
I'm married and we just tick over.

I have a son and but for him I'd kill myself rather than live this mediocre life. This joke of a life. I hate myself.
 
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It might traumatize your son not to mention the resources your bring in for your son which contribute to his future. Further that is not even mentioning what you might contribute to your sons possible greatness
 
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Hi Bobbyewing, I'm so sorry for how you're feeling. Hold on to the good you have in your life, your son. Please take care and all the best wishes.

If you’re thinking about suicide and are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number (i.e. in the UK call 999, in the USA or Canada call 911, in Australia call 000 and in New Zealand call 111) or call the international emergency number of 112.

If you have been affected by the contents of this thread and would like to speak to someone about your feelings you can call one of the following helplines:

In the UK and Ireland, the Samaritans can be contacted on 116 123.
In the US, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255.
In Canada, the Suicide Prevention Service on 1.833.456.4566.
In Australia, the crisis support service Lifeline is on 13 11 14.
In New Zealand, the Need to Talk service is on 1737 or 080017371737.
Other international helplines can be found at www.befrienders.org.
 
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You are a husband, a dad, and a teacher. Three challenging things. If you also have depression on top of that, then you are doing very well.

Are you able to take a break from work for a while?

Drinking, is that a sign you are not coping?

If you are taking antidepressants, they won't work as well if you are also drinking.

Are you able to speak to your doctor today? If you are unwell, that is what they are there for and i am sure they can help.
 
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Our web page on getting help may also be useful to you. Here is a link to it Mental Health Forum - Getting Help

Here is a link to an article on Suicidal Crisis written by one of the Admin team which you may find helpful Suicidal Crisis

Please do seek help as soon as possible.

We wish you well and hope that things soon get better for you.
 
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I'm not going to end because of him but I wish I could. If that makes sense
 
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I'm not going to end because of him but I wish I could. If that makes sense
It makes complete sense
I wish i could die, but i am not going to do it for my own personal reasons
It is good you have him

Some people say that having children saved their life because otherwise, they would have killed themselves or just given up on trying to live a healthy life
 
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This is a depression self-test
I find it helpful to show me how bad i feel or if i am managing ok
It is very quick to do if you think it might help
 
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I just feel my life is shit.
I teach but am mediocre.
No real achievement in my life.
I'm over weight and I have an issue controlling my drinking.
I've had all of these issues too. Feeling like I'm going nowhere. I taught overseas but never felt really competent or suited for that kind of job. Just fumbling through it all, really, for years. Drank so much it was serious.
 
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I've had all of these issues too. Feeling like I'm going nowhere. I taught overseas but never felt really competent or suited for that kind of job. Just fumbling through it all, really, for years. Drank so much it was serious.
Do you still teach?
 
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I'm in Ireland by the way. I have the numbers here.
I suppose part of my issue is finding a way post booze well I'm not totally off the booze but heading there.
Booze clouds everything.
 
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