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MHFPokeplantz
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Whats crazy feels even crazier when the mess in my head goes back distorted to me when I speak to someone, as if it were my fault.
Ppl always be telling me to speak up more or trust them, but when I eventually do (what is not often at all) I hear I should face things more, or that Im lazy, or that "thats life", like man if I have mind issues then its expected (technically) that my behavior wont be THAT "normal" or usual, "simple" like most people, but then they KNOW IT and still demand me to act totally different and more "like the others", use other ppl as parameter, say Im not trying, etc
And if I dont talk to them about these or dont go into details AT ALL, Im "suffering in silence" and am choosing to suffer (
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So hard to tell between when to speak to "better" ppl about it (though even professionals so far have said often similar things) or when Im being too "close minded" and stubborn. Culture doesnt help AT ALL w damn I M M E D I A T I S M when somethings just CANT be solved overnight. PATIENCE
Ppl always be telling me to speak up more or trust them, but when I eventually do (what is not often at all) I hear I should face things more, or that Im lazy, or that "thats life", like man if I have mind issues then its expected (technically) that my behavior wont be THAT "normal" or usual, "simple" like most people, but then they KNOW IT and still demand me to act totally different and more "like the others", use other ppl as parameter, say Im not trying, etc
And if I dont talk to them about these or dont go into details AT ALL, Im "suffering in silence" and am choosing to suffer (

So hard to tell between when to speak to "better" ppl about it (though even professionals so far have said often similar things) or when Im being too "close minded" and stubborn. Culture doesnt help AT ALL w damn I M M E D I A T I S M when somethings just CANT be solved overnight. PATIENCE