Feel free

[midnightphoenix]

To make me be dead

 

[Tawny]

To make me be dead

Hello you, how are you doing?

 

[Tawny]

We all care so much about you midnight and don't want you to feel so low.

 

[Tawny]

I'm feeling similar at the moment. What has happened to you today? or is it just that constant struggle?

 

[midnightphoenix]

I overwhelmed

Buzzing in my brain

Angry wasps in my brain

At work

 

[Tawny]

I overwhelmed

Buzzing in my brain

Angry wasps in my brain

At work

How much longer until you go home?

 

[Tawny]

Breathe in 1 2 3
Hold
Out 1 2 3

 

[Tawny]

I hope you have a nice, cozy, comforting evening planned. Warm and snug with a nice hot drink and some nice food. It helps us get through doesn't it.

You are doing so well. One day at a time x

 

[midnightphoenix]

How much longer until you go home?

8pm finish

Going to hurt when I home

Make him stop

 

[Tawny]

Is there a person or number you can call for help when you feel like this?

I didn't realise you self harmed. I haven't ever really done it other than drinking when things get very bad for me. I have done one other thing but not sure it is self harm. It is hard to know what to do when we are distraught.

I hope the journey home is so nice that you will feel more at peace with everything. Your pets will be there when you get home to greet you and i am sure do not want to see you suffer. When i have been drunk, my cat has come to me very upset and confused. It hurts to make her sad.

Who is him?

 

[Fairy Lucretia]

you can have my number if you want? don't feel bad if you don't but im happy to chat on the phone if it might quiet him x

 

[Fairy Lucretia]

love to you tawny x

 

[NWiddi]

Make him stop

But he doesn't ever stop does he? So why harm yourself?

I ignore my voice, I act as if he doesn't even exist, he still says my name 40 times a day to try and get me to speak to him but I ignore it.

Please listen to Tawny...

I hope you have a nice, cozy, comforting evening planned. Warm and snug with a nice hot drink and some nice food. It helps us get through doesn't it.

You are doing so well. One day at a time x

 

[Zoe1]

poor little Midnights

Midnight not harm or make dead
we would miss a Midnight so terribly

I be about later on email

the girlies need you

 

[Tawny]

8pm finish

Going to hurt when I home

Make him stop

I have been thinking, what has helped me is to internalise the love and kindness, the care, the fondness people have had for you, that is what helped me. I think of my grandparents and other family members, think of the images rather than words, i think of images of me and another person cuddling. My Granny kissing my head as a baby, there is a photo of it.

You can keep in your mind, your heart, these nice people here and others who care for you.

Any bad memory that comes to mind, quickly replace it with that.