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Fear on turning into psychotic

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EstherRose94

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I’m sure you’re not schizophrenic, sounds more like OCD, ie an obsessional fear of having schizophrenia.

So your best response to that fear is “well, if I did, then I would seek treatment and I would be okay”

That being said, anxiety and/or OCD aren’t chump change. It’s legitimately scary! You can absolutely overcome it though and start to feel better 🥰 keep sharing with us
 
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This reminds me of my OCD/intrusive thoughts. I got the most anxiety inducing thoughts that I can't even verbalize on here but deep down I know I would never act on. What worked for me was just telling myself "Well I never act out these things before these thoughts came so where's the evidence that I'd wakeup and suddenly do it now? My history of being harmless all my life controdicts of what I'm afraid I could do if I snap" The mere fact that OP is objecting to their thoughts is evidence enough that they aren't their thoughts. Anxiety reacting to the thought of being psychotic is basically the brains *dysfunctional* way of protecting you from doing anything psychotic. The anxiety, in its own fucked up way is your brain giving you unsolicited reminder that psychotic is bad even if the person has enough common sense that its almost never warrented. The anxiety is ego-distonic.
this is exactly how I feel. As EstherRose94 mentioned, it may actually have to do with obsessive thinking. I never considered myself with OCD but I think maybe I at least do have traits of it.

My intrusive thoughts come all the time and hence my anxiety has no specific triggers. I get captured once an intrusive thought comes. I start analysing it, feeling as if I'd act on them because I've thought about them.

I used to (still kind of) blames it on TV series e.g. American horror story // violent news nowadays. They have definitely contributed to my increasingly intrusive thoughts.

:) I hope you're coping with your anxiety okay
 
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this is exactly how I feel. As EstherRose94 mentioned, it may actually have to do with obsessive thinking. I never considered myself with OCD but I think maybe I at least do have traits of it.

My intrusive thoughts come all the time and hence my anxiety has no specific triggers. I get captured once an intrusive thought comes. I start analysing it, feeling as if I'd act on them because I've thought about them.

I used to (still kind of) blames it on TV series e.g. American horror story // violent news nowadays. They have definitely contributed to my increasingly intrusive thoughts.

:) I hope you're coping with your anxiety okay
Have you tried therapy?

I saw my therapist earlier today. I asked her if I was psychotic 🙂. Her answer was “Being psychotic is believing that things you see are true”. If you question yourself if you are insane, psychotic or schizophrenic then you are not. It’s just you are very aware of yourself and thoughts and trying to be safe. It’s like a protection mechanism.

I am feeling so much better now that love saw my therapist earlier.

I hope you feel better soon.
 
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RoseGoldBoi

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this is exactly how I feel. As EstherRose94 mentioned, it may actually have to do with obsessive thinking. I never considered myself with OCD but I think maybe I at least do have traits of it.

My intrusive thoughts come all the time and hence my anxiety has no specific triggers. I get captured once an intrusive thought comes. I start analysing it, feeling as if I'd act on them because I've thought about them.

I used to (still kind of) blames it on TV series e.g. American horror story // violent news nowadays. They have definitely contributed to my increasingly intrusive thoughts.

:) I hope you're coping with your anxiety okay
No doubt media definitely has influence on them. You'll notice people with anxiety like this all have similar stories. I was exposed to a documentary as a child which didn't have a warning about the images they were going to show. Yes they were technically censored but it was sill enough to leave a scar. I searched the documentary not too long ago for "closure" or something like that and at the end of it, it said "If you were affect by this documentary, please call 1-800-ect" and I was like "WTF you ppl put me in therapy! F U". It turns out I wasn't the only one who thought it wasn't cool to show those images non-challantly. I guess people who work in that feild resented they had to see stuff like that and were like "if we have to see it then so do you". But yeah nowadays it doesn't affect me and when it comes its only mild anxiety and I remind myself that its just some passing clouds with rain. I really hope OP finds a silverlining and gets hope reading other people with this anxiety because if my emotionally sensetive self can find balance then anyone can.
 
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Law1505

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Have you tried therapy?

I saw my therapist earlier today. I asked her if I was psychotic 🙂. Her answer was “Being psychotic is believing that things you see are true”. If you question yourself if you are insane, psychotic or schizophrenic then you are not. It’s just you are very aware of yourself and thoughts and trying to be safe. It’s like a protection mechanism.

I am feeling so much better now that love saw my therapist earlier.

I hope you feel better soon.
I used to have CBT sessions, and my therapist told me ‘if I were Psychotic, I would think that everyone else is crazy but me’

Anxiety does it’s magic that I (perhaps you too) think I am crazy and everyone else is normal. This contrast is something I remind myself everyday and it works well :) hope that’ll help you too
 
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Hey there,

Im sorry to hear that youre struggling, i am too and tbh i have the exact same problem with you. Ive become obsessed over developing a mental illness like that for six minths now, the fear of losing it. My GP also tells me its anxiety but just like your case, my brain is trying to convince me that it is not. Ive read alot about psychosis and just like what people said here, psychotic people can not tell that they are psychotic(well the majority of them). Yet again, our anxiety will always make us believe otherwise. But tbh your post gave me a bit relief, because its nice to know that youre not alone in this. I hope you recover from it soon, and if you want to discuss it feel free to contact with me.
 
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Law1505

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Hey there,

Im sorry to hear that youre struggling, i am too and tbh i have the exact same problem with you. Ive become obsessed over developing a mental illness like that for six minths now, the fear of losing it. My GP also tells me its anxiety but just like your case, my brain is trying to convince me that it is not. Ive read alot about psychosis and just like what people said here, psychotic people can not tell that they are psychotic(well the majority of them). Yet again, our anxiety will always make us believe otherwise. But tbh your post gave me a bit relief, because its nice to know that youre not alone in this. I hope you recover from it soon, and if you want to discuss it feel free to contact with me.
Hello! Nice to know that I’m not alone in this. It’s been a year and 3 months since the anxiety started kicking in. The anxiety kicked in less since I stopped drinking alcohol.

How did your anxiety come about?? And when did you realise it’s only anxiety, instead of psychosis?
 
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Hi,
Please see a dr, only a dr can diagnose if it's anxiety or psychosis.
Take care
 
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Paklom

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Hello! Nice to know that I’m not alone in this. It’s been a year and 3 months since the anxiety started kicking in. The anxiety kicked in less since I stopped drinking alcohol.

How did your anxiety come about?? And when did you realise it’s only anxiety, instead of psychosis?

I had anxiety ever since childhood, panic attacks and phobias. But one thing i developed few months ago was intrusive thoughts. That made my anxiety fuel up and started searching what was it.

I realised it was anxiety when i told my symptoms to my GP and he told me its all anxiety, your mind is making things up when there is no need. That reassured for a bit but still my mind is obsessed about it. Therapy worked at first, now its back again.

Are you on a therapy?
 
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