- Jan 31, 2019
- White Plains, NY
It's been with me for a great deal of my life. I was hospitalized at 6 or around then because I stopped eating I was so afraid of choking. It comes and goes throughout my life. I used to eat lunch in a dugout on a baseball field the last year of high school. Just to be away from people for fear I'd choke in front of a room full of people. I'd eat soup on class trips just to make sure I wouldn't choke. Now at 34, I'm right back there again. I can't eat anywhere but my bedroom. Unless it's soup. Stress triggers it. And I'm talking life changing stress. Like the death of a loved one. Fear of moving on. Fear of abandonment. This scene was always nightmarish to me as a child.