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Feb 3, 2020
London, Uk
Can trigger my acoustic hallucinations. It started in 2006.

A combination of cigarettes and garbage quality weed. Stress. And two back to back deaths in my family. Also. Preceded by two national tragedies. September 11th, 2001 being the first. I am a survivor.

A time traveler.

The voices are tiny. Like talking termites. Negative. Like trash talking. When someone may provoke a fist fight. But they are pussy as hell.

Like. Super pussy.

I mean. I survived 9/11. I only fear God.

I would do anything that was threatening me or my loved ones.

I am not in fear. I am from New York. I am not afraid of anything. I grew up watching Ninja Turtles. I loved weapons since a kid.

Once I mastered martial arts and weaponry. I knew I could do right always by being righteous about life. I learned to help and protect others. Always with honor.

Go ninja.

Well. I feared vents for about one second.

Air vents.


Ventilation shafts etc.

The voices stemmed from there.

It was very convenient.

For example. Low negative termites, trash talking with negative remarks. Provoking a fist fight. But not literally. Just enough to aggravate you. But without enough balls to actually confront you because they are scared to death.

For example. Thinking logically. Why go through the trouble of trash talking out of a fan or vent. When if they knocked on my door or entered my property. I can use my real life katana blade to cut their ears off?

I know that I can hospitalize an assailant with my bare hands. So no worries there? I know that my ninja stars are extremely sharp? But nope. Its all bullshit. Negativity.

Mental insecurities. Disguised as an illusion of reality. Why? Geez. I have a million reasons.

I have a PHD in clinical Psycology. Self educated. I am a serial entrepeneur. Genious.

Family guy. Philanthropist. God fearing man. Law abiding citizen. I love nature. I love life. I am a motivational speaker. I literally save lives daily.

Of course the deciever would look for ways to attack me? Common sense. Of course there are deeply rooted; seeded insecurities in the sub concious. I am an over achiever. In everything I do.

Now. I have everything to loose to allow anything to influence me. Especially anything negative. But notice how convenient this is.

It happens. Once a week as of the last week or so. Right before sleep.

If I smoke weed. Only Indica. Sativas are dangerous to anyone with any diagnosed mental challenge...

I have to make sure not to smoke at least 2 hours prior to sleep... This can cause a second episode.

But 2 out of 7 days. Is not bad. But Ill share a little secret with you.

The fact that I am on here. Sharing with you my way to over come it. Is the antidote.

I am conciously connecting with trillions of people online. Sharing my story. Healing both of our pains. Now the subconcious knows that we are not alone!

The small.... Teenie... Tiny.. Negative thoughts are wispers.... Wispers... They try to isolate us into a corner or voulnerable spot...

To attack us... Defenseless...to make itself appear like a mountain... When its not even a snow flake!!!

But. When we rationalize it for what it truly is.

We win.

We all win.

We set our selves free.

No more pain.

No more torment.

Its been 14 years of this bullshit.

I have had some negative people in my life. Talk bad about me. Here and there. But nothing more.


There is nothing bad to say about me.

Some people just envy. Hate. Offend. Hurt.

Or just want you to fail..

Well. Fuck them. Become a multi millionare. And pray for them. Wish them the best!

Delete certain negative people from your life.

Simple. Problem solved.

Ignore them.

That's outside of you.

Love yourself internally.

As for the negative. Termites. Talking negative. Laugh at them.

Pay that bullshit zero mind.

Continue to prosper. Continue to progress. Continue to grow.

I accept it. From time to time. I may hear some bullshit. If I experience an episode. I externalize it. I tell my wife.

I find an online forum to reprogram my own brain. I explain in full detail how I am in full control of my own mind and my own destiny. By simply ventilating. By showing you all the antidote.

By showing you how it works. And how easily it is defeated.

The voices run . .... Out of my head like little bitches... The subconcious hides them...

They may never return.

But if they do. I will be right here waiting. Katana blades sharpened mentally to decapitate all negative thoughts.

Just. Like that.

When I hear fans running it creates a white noise. Low. Low. And the voice would sneak in through that sound.

Can you imagine?

Its the most bizzare , stupid , little kid mentality thing I can think of?

Only a crack head can think of some dumb shit like that?

Thank God I am not a crack head.

This is why this is the last time I hear that bullshit.

If I ever hear that bullshit I am drug testing myself and checking into the emergency room myself!

So now that all of that is cleared. I can get excellent sleep! I have three business meetings tomorrow. I have churches and charities to help. I have things to situate in my own company. I have my children to reach out to and my parents to assist.

Plus. I have to study and upload my motivational courses online for free to help inner city youth programs and feed the homeless. ....

Thank you. And God bless everyone that reads this.

Anytime you need the antidote to acoustic hallucinations. Please read this.

You are special and unique and one of a kind. You are amazing in all that you do. May all of your dreams always come true.

We have the power to control our own mind.

Any one. Who needs assistance. Please write me on here. I am here at least once or twice per week!

Feel free to write me at any time! I will respond within one week!

May the force always be with you!

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HIya and Welcome to the forum. I hope you find us supportive and friendly


New member
Feb 3, 2020
London, Uk
Yes. Its been one week. This post will be a one year live action test.

All are welcome to join me here. This platform will help us all.

Here is my weekly update: 2/10/2020

Excellent week. Maybe two small episodes that lasted about 20 seconds each.

Both occured today. The first and most severe. Maybe 17 seconds or more. Was during a nap where I woke up suddenly but stayed in bed resting. Assuring myself it would easily pass and it did.

Through out the day. I smoked my indica. Very low quantity. And only once. As soon as I woke up. This is an important factor. I want to also shed light on the topic of mary jane and how indicas are our solution. But I will write a new post reguarding that in its entirety separately. So stay tuned.

- I quickly jumped in the shower. I prayed and meditated. Got dressed. Gathered my family. Went for a picnic. Spent valuable family time cruising in the convertible sports car. Visited some family and friends. Then came home to watch some movies and tv. Like funny adventurous films etc. Light hearted content.

I drank a little cognac. A few ice cold beers. All moderate. Calculated and over an extensive; prolonged period of time.

I took a nap in between movies. I even did some business accounting in between. And during only the first part of my nap. The first panic or anxiety attack manifested for 16 seconds or less.

I feel back asleep. And we all got through it.

Later during that day. I wrote one of my business partners to ventilate some minimal things that had been bothering me.

Cleaning out the emotional hard drive!

Basic mental health maintenence!!!

Well. The day went great.

Right before bed. And as you know. I am CEO of my own corporation. Mondays are extremely important for me. They are also early early days. I will be on a flight in about three hours... This is regular for me.

Right when I am comfortable in bed. I rest for about one hour. And shazzam. A 3 second episode...

I stay in bed. Resting. Keeping calm. I continue my plan. I get up. I use the bathroom. And I remember my own post.

I surf online. I read it. And I realize. One more week cleared. I remember my weekly up date is due. Its excellent to build this study online with you all.

Funny thing is. My right ear has fluid. I can not hear anything on that side. I cleaned my ear out and just laughed to myself... All this nonsense episode of insecurities and negativity... When I had a marvelous day... And then I remembered!

I cant even hear out of my right ear!

My insecurity ran to hide!

As you can see. Reality. Clarity. Logic is the antidote!

So now.. .. My subconcious. Has to figure out another way to try to make the insecurity seem real...

And I am publicly humiliating and challenging my own mind! Lets get it on! Its a free learning seminar private in my own head.

Now. I am going to force my subconcious to work for me!

My own subconcious is running to hide because. There is no logic. Zero common sense. For me to hear anything. With an ear ache!

So. I win again.

We all win again.

This is great.. Just wanted to celebrate with all 998 trillion of you all; my brothers and sisters through time, space, infinity and beyond.

This is better than wining the Super Bowl of awesomeness and greatness.

It is a blessing how truly great and marvelous we all are.

Thank you all for all of your prayers and support. And may the good almighty and powerful lord continue to bless you.

You are young. You are powerful. And you are successful.

Continue to dream big because your dreams always come true.

See you next week!

May The Force Be With You!



New member
Feb 3, 2020
London, Uk
Weekly update: February 17,2020

I know... It should have been yesterday... But I fell asleep late...

Here. We. Go.

Last week was a roller coaster ride.

It was good over all. Thursday. Proved the most challenging.

Because of it. Friday was on shaky grounds.

Thursday I had to be clear across the mountains on one of my other business ventures. A newly hired person in need of guidance befriended me.

So far. So good.

The day goes smoothly. But business was calm.

Towards the end of the day. And through normal conversation. It turns out that we both have a mutual person. We know and have worked with.

From then on. The attack was on.

I knew this other person hated me and spoke badly of me. This person has gone as far as spreading lies and rumors about me.

All untrue. With no basis or foundation other than hatred and envy.

In the moment. Of course in the moment. This tension triggers a panic attack. I quickly go into defense mode.

I hear an acoustic hallucination. Live and direct. For 2 seconds....

Spiritually. It was the perfect time for the devil to reveal himself. Hiding in a weak soul...

The business was picking up. ... Of course!

* I use my secret formula. Again. And again.

I pray. I power through!

I have the feeling of going home.

In a sense avoiding the verbal. Emotional. Psycological conflict.

My nature is non confrontational. As a Jedi Master... I am like Yoda + The Incredible Hulk.

So I rather turn to my holy bible and walk away from conflict. As much as humanly possible.

I know everything is on the line in this fairly new business development.

I go through all standard protocols.

And once again: I use the top secret formula.

"A snow flake/ negative thought; brought about in an unanticipated conversation... About a tactical, already easily identifiable uncomfortable/ aggravating topic-subject.

" Making itself appear like: A Mount Everest.

That is only one, little, bitsi , negative termite of a negative thought; which is weak as hell...

So. Lets be pragmatic here.

Was I in danger? No. Clearly.

Bullshit conversation? Yes. Obviously.

Unnecessary? Yes.

Non existent/ non factor in my life/ universe? Yes.

Is this temporary? 2 seconds maximum? Yes. And yes.

Ok. Certified for all available nuclear codes... Affirmative... Launching nuclear sequence mode...


Call President Trump for approval... Check... Authorization request to use deadly force on all terrorist... J.F.K... Foreign and domestic.... Check... To up hold our great constitution... Check... To answer the call above and beyond the call of duty...

Permission granted....

Predator drones... Coming online... Chewie... Prepare my FALCON!


Radar bleeps... Target identified... Locked in...

Fox 1.... Fox 2...

Direct hit! Lmao!!!!

* I Tony Robbins myself.... Ok. In my Mikey voice in Rocky .... Get up you son of a bitch.... Cause Mikey loves you! " Your gonna hear that little angel"

You. Tube. That speech from Mikey.. About life takes away....

** I tell myself in my Jim Rohn voice... Your going to be ok.

This will pass. In 2 seconds... Keep going... The laws of average will protect you...

*** I finish the day strong. I take of each client. I got my point across to my insecurities..

I. Am. In. Full. Control.

I will not be driven or pushed around in my own business.. Where I feed my babies... By any nonsense bs... Negativity etc... !!!

- The day was out best last week.

I used that negative moment and flipped the pancakes!

1. I used a negative and turned it into a positive.

2. I used that moment to mentor and bond with my staff.

3. We focused on integrity and character in my lecture.

4. We worked harder and emphasized on excellent customer service and enhancing client experience.

5. We laughed. We joked. We talked about business.

It was a blessing!

The day passed. We all moved forward deciding not to have conversations about.. Gossip or negativity and focus on the business to be the best we can be. ..

It was not until I did the accounting of the day..rewinded the security footage that I realized. The evil one, chose that moment to sabotage our daily success...

You should have seen how much harder we started to work.. And the day was amazing!

Through out the week. Traveling is a huge part for me. Its cool for the most part. But like anything. It can take a toll on you..

By Friday. I had only 2 business meetings. Heading home to pick up my family. I saw someone that upset me... I had seen that person early in the day. And then on my days end...

I prayed. I powered through.

I picked up my family. I reflected on a good but mentally challenging week. We laughed about Thursday and Friday. And I went on to enjoy my Sabbath with my loved ones.

I had time to pray and study. Meditate and reflect. Prepare for my following week.

I always organize myself and plan ahead. Reach out to my loved ones.....

One of the things my mentor and teacher says is; rewind the tapes... Then replay them as a comedy in fast foward speeds; like a comedy!

You reflect on each day. And literally move past anything that is not positive or propelling you closer to your dreams.

For me. There are many people I had to eliminate from my life. You may see them from time to time but its important to move past them.

You simply can not devote time to anyone whom does not deserve your time.

It can cause a headache. But its ok to feel or think that way. As long as you are respectful and cordial; while maintaining clear and present distance.

You have the right to avoid negative people, places , circumstances and things that are there to harm your pursuit of happiness.

For me its easy now.

No time. For bs. God bless is my mentality!

For this week. My aim and my personal challenge/goal. Is to continue to avoid negativity.

Yes. I am going as far as eating in new restaurants. To avoid the bad crowds etc.

I don't want to be around people who do not fight for a brighter future each day..

Today. Was excellent. For a day to day. I eliminated 95% of stress. Just by following those simple guidelines. Now tomorrow. My goal is 100%.

Every day I improve something in myself.

Instead of 6 sugars in my Starbucks. Maybe 5. 1.5 hours at the gym. To 2 hours. Little goals like that.

Less politics. More financial news.

Focus more on investing back, into my own company.

My business partners are going through drama.. I can advise from a far. I can help them through prayers. But I have to emphasize my own investments... I have my own opportunities for growth...

I have sacrificed for everyone long enough...

Now. Its. My. Turn.

Its hard for everyone to accept it.. But. Its only fair. Its only right.

I have to put my self first.

Because for years.. I was first to put myself last!

I realize.. I have to value myself!

Mental challenges.. Limitations... Barriers.. I embrace them. I understand that I am self curing myself. I do not internalize it. ..

I laugh at it. Today was 5% discomfort. 95% stress free. Tomorrow my goal is 100% stress free.

One day at a time...

Again. I get to share this with a trillion time travelers like myself... And together... We overcome this spec of a negative thought.

Thank you all for your time. Thank you for coming along in the journey of a time traveler. I pray that all of your hopes, dreams and aspirations come true!

God bless you all. Yes.. I am writing the book series already... And this will be a part of it... (Entrepeneur; shameless plug/ direct product marketing..lol)

Remember that you are young. You are powerful. And you are successful.

May The Force Always Be With You. ...