- Sep 4, 2015
I am really struggling right now. My SH addiction is beginning to takeover my every thought. I went through a horrible ordeal when i was really young and again when i was a teen and SH was the way i coped. but i have been destructing badly recently and i have tried to find new ways to get through the flashbacks and the nightmares but nothing else helps. I have seen my doctor, i have tried talking to friends and family but they don't really get it. They just want the "old" me back i.e. the person who didn't confide or share problems and i really don't think i am strong enough to keep fighting this by myself. I barely sleep, i cant function properly and the nightmares don't ever leave even when i'm awake. I would usually be turning to SH right about now but o really really don't want to, i'm just not sure i'm strong enough to stop myself. infact i'm pretty positive if i started i wouldn't stop. For anything.