Faking DID?

SoggySlippers

SoggySlippers

Well-known member
Joined
Aug 25, 2015
Messages
126
#1
I have done a lot of reading,have browsed many forums(not talking about this place though) and it is hard for me to believe there are truly as many people with DID that claim they have it.

Something I have noticed is the vast amount of people that make it seem/sound like DID is a fun or cool disorder to have,even turn it into a contest over who has the most insiders.

But this isn't a post with the intention of criticising or judging anyone(although it probably sounds like I am).I am just curious WHY anyone would fake it or even brag about it.

It is so obvious sometimes when someone is faking for attention,but WHY would they do that?
 
SoggySlippers

SoggySlippers

Well-known member
Joined
Aug 25, 2015
Messages
126
#2
Was hoping to get at least one reply here,but that's okay.
 
V

veggiegirl3

Active member
Joined
Sep 27, 2015
Messages
25
#3
That is really interesting. I am guessing a lot more people do have it than would be guessed, since people might try to hide it. It is interesting that there seems to be a contest-like environment about it on some forums.
 
N

neverlandgirl

Member
Joined
Oct 22, 2015
Messages
5
#4
Hi SoggySlippers. I don't know how much I can "enlighten" you or change your opinion at all. I was diagnosed with having this disorder about 6 months ago. I must admit I was relieved to finally feel as though I wasn't just strange, aloof and different for no apparent reason. I have spent most of my life trying to imitate other people in order to socialise and figure out what is socially acceptable. I often feel as though I have one foot in another realm and just my toes in reality. I know what reality is but often don't feel connected to it at all. I often look in the mirror and the reflection I see feels as though it could be anyone, I just don't feel connected as you should when looking at your own reflection. It doesn't feel like me. It is the most difficult feeling to describe and verbalise. I don't think any words I write could assist very much in helping you experience or imagine the odd feeling of this. It is as though something else has taken over - almost like the feeling you dare to imagine when watching "Body Snatchers" or some other similar film. It is just weird without being completely terrifying for me.
I can only speak personally about my own experiences. I have been this way for as long as I can remember and have been OK with it until a few years ago when I experienced a nervous breakdown and my symptoms became overwhelming. Seeing things, beings. Feeling as though I am actually dead and walking in another realm - usually feeling this is purgatory or limbo. Having to have family members remind me that I am actually alive and well and expected to go here or there at certain times. I can honestly say there were times I felt some sense of relief that perhaps I was dead. I really believed, at some points, that I was dead, that I had choked and was gone and lingering amongst the living. I had no connection with myself of reality. I had one episode where I thought my arms were dead and should be cut off. They felt dead and gone - I couldn't feel them. I have had experiences where I have seen the devil, had dead people sit on my bed over and over and tell me things. Terrible shit that I would not wish on anyone at all. I have felt like I have had many, many out-of-body experiences. I used to believe in that - because I had so many strange experiences like that. I used to read people tarot cards because I thought I could astral travel and read people's fortune because it was the only way I could comprehend it all. When you do not know who you are really and am not even sure if you are alive or in this dimension then you should probably speak to a psychiatrist because it is not all just bullshit. It is awful and sometimes takes years to diagnose because it is extremely difficult to verbalise the symptoms to other people - you just know that might lock you up. Please try to imagine this and try to understand how horrible it is to feel so disconnected from yourself. How can you ever really know yourself when you feel so disconnected. I would give anything to be grounded like other people.
I hope this helps.
 
N

neverlandgirl

Member
Joined
Oct 22, 2015
Messages
5
#5
Hi veggiegirl3. Not sure about other forums as this is my first. I don't understand why anyone would wish to have been diagnosed with any mental illness let alone be the worst at it! LOL - talk about crazy - Sorry - LOL. I certainly wish I did not have anything at all to whinge about but hey, I just wanted to see if anyone else had similar experiences to me and hope there might some out there just as stuffed up as me! OR even more so - I would like that!
 
Gajolene

Gajolene

Well-known member
Joined
May 30, 2012
Messages
7,831
Location
small town Ontario, Canada
#6
True DID is very rare, I think that people do self diagnose and it does get reflected on the internet. Or a person can be misdiagnosed as well depending who they go to. Many cases of dissassociation and depersonalization can be misinterpreted. I agree why would anyone want to fake something like this. I can see wishing you were someone different or people pretending to be something they aren't attractive to some I suppose, but for those with the real live severe mental health conditions. It can be a living hell? Those that fake would never understand this.

I get mad when people minimalize PTSD myself, Oh I have a little PTSD, I went through something traumatic so I must have it. Ugg. If they only knew how devestating true PTSD is they would never want it let alone admitt that they have it so readily.

I did meet one lady with true DID once in my 20's during a psych admission. No one told me she had it but by the third day there it was very evident. She was in her mid 50's and would switch at least 4 times a day. The changes were trully astonishing to see. I asked her how long she had been in when her prominent was out and she said going over a year that time. I saw at least 8 different alters and spoke with them all. None of them had any idea about the others or acknowledged them. They all smoked though, she always came out when I was out. She liked me a lot. I was only in for a week that admission and never saw her again after that.

One nurse told me they had seen 13 of her alters. Male female, all ages, different voices and accents in their voices from different countries, entirely different attire and personal grooming with hair and makeup and such. different personality styles, I always wondered what happened to her. I am guessing she may have ended up in a longterm care facility because at that time period this is what most likely would of happened to her.
 
Last edited:
N

neverlandgirl

Member
Joined
Oct 22, 2015
Messages
5
#7
Really???

I don't really know what to say to your post there. I think that you have made a major misdiagnose yourself with your friend - In my opinion that is NOT depersonalisation disorder at all - we do NOT have multiple personalities??? Where did that come from???? Your friend has multiple personalities or something???



True DID is very rare, I think that people do self diagnose and it does get reflected on the internet. Or a person can be misdiagnosed as well depending who they go to. Many cases of dissassociation and depersonalization can be misinterpreted. I agree why would anyone want to fake something like this. I can see wishing you were someone different or people pretending to be something they aren't attractive to some I suppose, but for those with the real live severe mental health conditions. It can be a living hell? Those that fake would never understand this.

I get mad when people minimalize PTSD myself, Oh I have a little PTSD, I went through something traumatic so I must have it. Ugg. If they only knew how devestating true PTSD is they would never want it let alone admitt that they have it so readily.

I did meet one lady with true DID once in my 20's during a psych admission. No one told me she had it but by the third day there it was very evident. She was in her mid 50's and would switch at least 4 times a day. The changes were trully astonishing to see. I asked her how long she had been in when her prominent was out and she said going over a year that time. I saw at least 8 different alters and spoke with them all. None of them had any idea about the others or acknowledged them. They all smoked though, she always came out when I was out. She liked me a lot. I was only in for a week that admission and never saw her again after that.

One nurse told me they had seen 13 of her alters. Male female, all ages, different voices and accents in their voices from different countries, entirely different attire and personal grooming with hair and makeup and such. different personality styles, I always wondered what happened to her. I am guessing she may have ended up in a longterm care facility because at that time period this is what most likely would of happened to her.
 
Last edited by a moderator:
M

MarlieeB

ACCOUNT CLOSED
Joined
Jan 15, 2013
Messages
25,096
#8
I don't really know what to say to your post there. I think that you have made a major misdiagnose yourself with your friend - In my opinion that is NOT depersonalisation disorder at all - we do NOT have multiple personalities??? Where did that come from???? Your friend has multiple personalities or something???
The forum is not only about Depersonalisation it is all about DID aka Dissociation, Depersonalisation and Derealisation.

In the OP the poster says DID not one specific kind so Gajolene answered about DID. Here is more information about the three D's in DID.
 
Last edited by a moderator:
T

Topcat

Guest
#9
I don't really know what to say to your post there. I think that you have made a major misdiagnose yourself with your friend - In my opinion that is NOT depersonalisation disorder at all - we do NOT have multiple personalities??? Where did that come from???? Your friend has multiple personalities or something???
Maybe you've misunderstood? DID - Dissociative Identity Disorder...
Dissociative Identity Disorder (Multiple Personality Disorder): Signs, Symptoms, Treatment
 
Last edited by a moderator:
N

neverlandgirl

Member
Joined
Oct 22, 2015
Messages
5
#11
Do you know what - it is no wonder there is little activity on these forums with people posting about multiple personality disorders and the like along with DPD. NOT the same thing. People with DPD are always aware of reality but may not be able to associate or be involved with it. Different from some.
 
Last edited by a moderator:
H

Helena1

Well-known member
Forum Safety Team
Joined
Oct 11, 2014
Messages
9,765
Location
UK
#12
No one is saying DID and DPD are the same thing. The op clearly states she is talking about DID and doesn't mention any other disorder.

If you have an issue with DID being included in the Dissociation, Depersonalisation and Derealisation section of the forum perhaps you should start a thread about it in here. http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/forum138.html
 
T

Topcat

Guest
#13
Do you know what - it is no wonder there is little activity on these forums with people posting about multiple personality disorders and the like along with DPD. NOT the same thing. People with DPD are always aware of reality but may not be able to associate or be involved with it. Different from some.
That's great, but the OP is talking about faking DID, not DPD.
 
Last edited by a moderator:
cpuusage

cpuusage

ACCOUNT CLOSED
Joined
Sep 25, 2012
Messages
37,660
Location
Planet Lunatic Asylum
#14
SoggySlippers

SoggySlippers

Well-known member
Joined
Aug 25, 2015
Messages
126
#15
Thanks for all the replies here,although I am a little confused with some of them.

Yes,I was talking about DID(AKA multiple personality disorder) specifically.

I guess I started this thread because I do find alot of fakers online and I have found it very dusturbing.As someone who has recovered from this disorder and no longer have the diagnosis I can honestly say it is not something anyone would wish to have and I think the ones who fake it make it harder for those that truly do have it to be taken seriously.

Someone said something about PTSD in this thread,and without going back and finding it and trying to quote,I have been around many who have self diagnosed themselves with it over the slightest things,like a relationship break up.Today someone told me they think they have it because they get anxiety.I tried to explain the criteria needed for the dx,but they didnt want to hear it so I dropped the subject.They seem to want the dx,for whatever reasons,and I was thinking to myself PTSD is NOT something you would want to have,I wish it was as simple as getting occassional anxiety!!
 
cpuusage

cpuusage

ACCOUNT CLOSED
Joined
Sep 25, 2012
Messages
37,660
Location
Planet Lunatic Asylum
#16
I was thinking to myself PTSD is NOT something you would want to have,I wish it was as simple as getting occassional anxiety!!
The whole field of mental health is very difficult & odd. There are marked distinctions in behavioural (presenting speech/behaviour) with what may really be going within - there are huge gaps in medical/psychiatric knowledge & huge range as to what comes under different conditions. It's complicated as well by the whole ongoing anti/critical VS pro psychiatry argument, which largely seems to become primarily about polemics & politics.

Until there is a far far better understanding of the brain, consciousness & psyche & how all of that fits together with everything environmental - i don't see that we're going to make much headway within all these areas. Currently the order of the day seems to be primarily mass diagnoses/medicating.

There is no real coherence between areas of psychiatry, sociology, psychology & alternatives.

There are also various very different, & really irreconcilable World views/paradigms concerning the understanding of the mind/psyche - self & reality.

i found the book 'Soul Centered Healing' by Tom Zinser very good, which primarily focuses on DID.
 
Passionflower

Passionflower

Well-known member
Joined
Jul 15, 2011
Messages
1,366
Location
UK
#17
How do you know when someone is faking DID?.Maybe I could understand if it was in 'real life',but how can you tell from an online post?
 
SoggySlippers

SoggySlippers

Well-known member
Joined
Aug 25, 2015
Messages
126
#18
cpuusage,I went to Anazon to see what the book is about,it looks very interesting.I will have to read it.

Crawlspace,I don't know for sure if someone is faking,but there's many hints that they are.By some of the things they say.
 
cpuusage

cpuusage

ACCOUNT CLOSED
Joined
Sep 25, 2012
Messages
37,660
Location
Planet Lunatic Asylum
#19
cpuusage,I went to Anazon to see what the book is about,it looks very interesting.I will have to read it.
i'd be very interested in your opinion on it after you have read it.

It ties into the spirit release areas - Spirit Release Forum

Everything that i've come across seems to fall primarily into one main area -

1. Physiological/biologic.
2. Sociological/behavioural.
3. Psychological/emotional.
4. Spiritual/Transpersonal.

i think it makes sense to take a more Integral view - & to acknowledge that there are inner 'psychic' realities/realms of the psyche.
 
SoggySlippers

SoggySlippers

Well-known member
Joined
Aug 25, 2015
Messages
126
#20
Although I am no longer DID I am interested in the subject,there's still a lot I would like to understand about it.

There were some experiences during my 5 years of therapy that my therapist had trouble accepting when viewing them from a scientific point of view.He would say they were not possible and would seem confused,and sometimes a little freaked out by them.

I do believe though,as time went by,he started accepting that there was way more going on than he first believed and that some things can't really be explained but must be believed due to witnessing them firsthand.

Once,he got upset and said "people like to believe that what they are thinking is private,but that's not always the case with you,is it?".He was upset because he was thinking something negative about me and what I was discussing that day and I called him out on it.At. first he kept denying it but eventually gave in and admitted it.

There were other things too,and he would ask how I knew and when I explained that the energy level,his energy,shifted at certain times,he dismissed it as not true.Sometimes he witnessed the energy I was talking about but he had a hard time understanding or accepting it.For instance,a deck of cards were sitting in a stack on the table beside my chair,they slowly fell off the table( even though they were not on the edge of the table),they fell,one by one,in slow motion,into the garbage can,and we both sat and watched as he could only say "wow".Other things too,such as a water fountain suddenly getting very loud as I was talking,and many other things that he wasnt able to understand.When I tried to explain them,and that these were the things I have experienced my whole life,he tried to dismiss them as part of my illness.

He seemed so fascinated with the mirror writing that I only let him see it once.

I think maybe some of his beliefs may have changed through our years of therapy and he accepts some things are not able to be explained even though they can be experienced.