- Feb 22, 2015
I'm not one of those Christians who has had it easy all my life or whose life has changed dramatically immediately after getting saved. I was twelve when I got saved and before I did, I was this sensitive bookworm and after I accepted Jesus...I was a sensitive bookworm. Nothing really changed, I had trouble making friends, I would sometimes burst into tears because I just didn't know how to communicate my sadness. Then one summer came and I swear I could feel the anxiety coming over me. It started with me just clenching my fists or shuting my eyes. And then the images came and I diagnosed myself with ocd. I wanted to have myself commited. And it took me a long time but this illness that I have is what brought me closer to God. I talk to God when I rather beat myself up for these thoughts. I tell him how I feel, but I always try to end the conversation with something that lines up with his word like "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". I have struggled with this thing a lot longer than I wanted to, but if I've learned anything it's that by helping others we help ourselves recover. I wrote this to find out if there's any of you who has become stronger in your faith do to your illness( not just ocd) as well as to inspire others.