fairy lu is a stupid bitch

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YOu are not stupid!! You are in pain and that is what makes this so hard for you. Have you tried anything to help? There is a book I recommend called Emotional Hijacking by Marlene Schneider Potter which is written VERY simply and in larger letters as she knows people in pain can't read a wall of text. Its VERY good.
 
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thank you so much
i will look up that book on amazon

i feel worse about my self harming since the manager of my cmht said 'i choose to do'
and sort of made out it wasn't a problem at all and i could stop anytime i wanted x
 
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im having a bad few hours
i don't have the ability to talk through my emotions so sh is the only option
going offline to do some more


feel really really suicidal
uneasy and nervous :cry:
it just helps getting it out
 
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Oh no, Lu you're not stupid at all! You've been trying, it means you intend to cope differently so could we please call this a relapse and not make this mean something personal about ourselves?

I had a really tough night last night I couldn't sleep at all and consequently I've missed a therapy group and a class today. I've been doing pretty well so far this year but now Depression is telling me I'm just an unreliable piece of poo but I don't want to believe it, I just hit a bump is all.

I'm sorry for what that manager said. I would like to believe it's just another comment from a person who doesn't experience mental illness made in ignorance rather than a mean spirited attack. To that compassionless creature who dismissed you I ask, "If I could just stop problem behaviors, don't you think I would?! Do you really believe otherwise?"

If we could stop worrying we would, too. Alas.

Lu, you are an ambassador or light and love. Still, even magical fairies have setbacks. Nobody's going to take your glitter away. And we're happy to carry you for today, if you need us we'll be right here.

Much love,
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Hi Lu,
Sorry to hear your struggling so much, some professionals don't understand sh.
You can talk to me anytime via pm or on the forum.
Please call the crisis team if you feel you need them.
Glad your aunt is with you.
Take care
 
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Hello Lu, :hug1:
We care and you are not stupid at all, please speak to one of us, all of us if you need to:)

You are kind and caring and we think a lot of you x
 
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Hey, I couldn't sleep. So thought I'd ask how are you feeling?
 
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i feel very sad and tired but not tired
just strange weird and sad x
Hi Lu,
What is making you feel sad, anything specific or just a general wave?
I think I understand the tired strangeness getting that slot, but too full of everything to sleep. I'm here if you want to chat
X
 
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Hi Lu,
What is making you feel sad, anything specific or just a general wave?
I think I understand the tired strangeness getting that slot, but too full of everything to sleep. I'm here if you want to chat
X
thank you so much for being so kind x
i feel a bit better this afternoon than i did this morning
my mood swings are out of this world

thank you for the kind offer of talking ,i may take you up on that some time
love Lu x
 
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I'm glad you're feeling a little better this afternoon. X
And your welcome to chat anytime, I don't really sleep much so whenever.
Take care and know that you are an important part of the world.
J X
 
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im tired of my mood swings
one minute there is light and i feel 'okay' the next minute is completely bleak and darkness and i just want to die

can't get to sleep at night cos feel on edge and restless so sleeping in the day
didn't get up until 5pm so no sleep tonight
sorry for moaning x
 
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What medication are you on at the moment Lu? When was it last reviewed?
Sorry you're having trouble sleeping, I had been the same at night, it's a pain xxx
 
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im on several different medications and quetiapine for sleep
was recently increased a few months ago am due to see pdoc next month

sorry you struggle with the same thing x
 
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