- Oct 29, 2020
- Salt Lake City
I've had depression for a long time, I think - It's never been formally diagnosed, but I know that I have no motivation to do anything. I hate everything about myself, and can't do anything right. I know that people are lying to me when they say that I'm a good person, because I know the kind of person that I am - And if other people really knew me, they'd hate that person too. I find myself being so empty all the time, the only thing I want to do is sleep, and I can't get done the things that I need to get done. More than anything though, I'm lonely, and stuck in a cycle of hating that loneliness and knowing that I don't deserve it. I'm a hopeless person, and I don't know what to do about it anymore. I wonder, all of the time - How could anyone love me? How could anyone stand me? I just don't know anymore.