- Mar 13, 2018
Okay so i don't get like this in every relationship. I've been in quite a few long distance relationships. I tend to go for long distance since i have social anxiety. From now on though i will try to find a non long distance relationship lol. Anyways most of these long distance relationships ended sort of badly. I only ever had really strong feelings in one of these and that was the one where i would get really clingy, jealous, paranoid.. etc. All of these feelings feel amplified when the person lives in a different country. I felt like i was in love with this girl but we never met in person as she lived very far away. We would chat on skype... etc. I would ALWAYS be paranoid that she was cheating. I was very clingy and if she took longer than usual to text back i would start to worry...etc. I said some very nasty things to her as i truly believed at one stage that she was doing something behind my back. The stuff i said to her was really bad. When we broke up i pretended i had killed myself by putting a tagline saying "if you're reading this i killed myself" on my profile on the website that we used to talk. I took it down after a few hours as i felt bad. Still a bad thing to do i know. In all the other relationships i was in i didn't feel anywhere near that bad but i haven't liked anyone as much as her either. Is this a symptom of a mental illness or what? Should i mention it to my psychiatrist?