why do you say you don't want to hurt your siblings when earlier in post you say you don't get on with them, so why do you care?
also, you say your 2 siblings and then later you say brothers and sister. just wondering.
I put this in the wrong forum, sorry everyone. As for not getting on with my siblings, that doesn't mean I am not aware of all the pain it would cause if I were to kill myself. I don't get on with them, if any of them were to harm themselves it would still hurt me, I still love them. I have 2 siblings near by who I don't have a great relationship with at present, but I also have another one, but in the context of what was a difficult post to write I didn't expect to have holes picked in how many I have.