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I am dealing with ongoing anger, depression,confusion,racism, even bullying. I dated a guy who made fun of my sexual abuse. At first I tried to just brush it off and ignore him but then a few days after that his daughter accused him of sexual abuse. I heard him say one time that he hopes his daughters friends think he is attractive. This man was 49 at the time. Then he told me how he makes his daughter sleep with him because he can't stand to sleep alone. She was 12 and almost as tall as i around 5ft 7 and developed. He even called me her name and hollered at me. That was weird because I am black and she is white, japanese, and cherokee so I don't know why or how he could do weird stuff like that and confuse us because I'm in my 40s. He also called me a no good n word after telling me he loved me, over not preparing a very old raggedy gift box he reuses every year, because I couldnt get it to sit up or wrap it to his liking. I have went to places like walmart pubicly with him but other places he acted embarrassed to be seen with me. He would pull guns out of now where while driving waving them in a suburban city that is known for pulling people over and doesnt tolerate crime. He would only let his older friends speak to me, not the younger ones. He has stated multiple times how his black clients houses smell and they were nasty and how his half black sisters were n word babies. I'm sorry I am writing an essay but what hurts is that I tried to warn others about him no one even his black friends believe me. I had a woman find me on instagram with a fake account and she told me he forced himself on her because she was late and will never datw him again but weirdly tried to pry into my sexual experience with him. It was odd because even though he forced himself on her she said missionary was great with him wtf and asked if he bought me things and took me out in public. On top of this I started a new job. I dont know if I am psychic or what but I experienced bullying im in my almost late 40s and they thought I was 25. I thought it was because I looked young but I find out later the main lady bullying a white women who was my age her daughter who worked there was dating my exes nephew there were a fww other girls there who bullied me for no reason. Well come to find out they all know my ex. He used to stalk me and the main bully stays less than a block from me so know I know where he was parked when he would call and tell me who was in my driveway. Ive been harrassed on dating sites by catfish accounts being called an nword. I know its him, it scares me hes even knows my neighbor but they claimed they havent seen him in years. I am trying to get over this but its been hard, both my parents were not emotionally there for me i would get pushed away if i wanted a hug but my father had no problem molesting me since i was a baby i wish they just aborted me, my mother i think was jealous of my looks. I guess the point is this guy triggered every thing from my past. I told him what my father did. Yet I felt he tried to traumatize me again. He reopened old scars I thought waas healed. Ive tried warning others about him its even online publicly that his parental rights were terminated, and that he blamed his daughter for him sexually abusing her. I am trying to move because he stays close to me I see his truck pass from time to time. HIs friend from florida who I only talked to once via my ex phone, never had no social media contact, with this guy, is showing up in my suggestion or people you may know in October, actually multiple friends and family and his 6ft8 nephew just tryed to follow me. These people are bikers too. I dont think I was wrong for warning others because multiple people were molested by my father because I didnt speak up. As of March 2019 this man is still free I just dont get it. Do people like him ever get there karma? Did he just look at me as prey or a cover? Sorry this is so long but the situation still has me messed up on the inside
