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Evil thoughts (or voices?)

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healingmyself

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I think I am an evil person, I used to see a psychologist and was diagnosed with OCD/anxiety etc. I have had bad thoughts for as long I can remember, they get worse when I'm bored/depressed. My therapist was convinced these were intrusive thoughts and not in line with my character, but she didn't understand I really feel like I'm evil sometimes.

I used to do evil things to my little brother when we were young, things that have traumatized him and I feel so guilty that I can't stand to be around him. When I got older and realized these things were wrong, I stopped them immediately and felt horrible after that. But I seem to have this evil side to me, I'm fascinated with serial killers and I have thoughts of hurting my family (and pets)

I obviously won't hurt them because I care about them but I have these thoughts like shutting the door on my cat when he's halfway out/in. I could be petting him and I hear this thought/voice like you should do something bad to him and then I become numb. I have thoughts of throwing my son down the stairs but again I won't...but I feel like they are not just thoughts but actual feelings and I should be locked up.
 
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What I'm about to say is something that can't be expressed as fact, I have no physical proof, all I have is nearly four years of personal experience, my instincts and a book that was written by a man who believes the same as I do.

I believe that all humans (and possibly other species) share their bodies with another consciousness, two unique and independent minds sharing one body, quite a concept but not one that is completely my own, thanks to the book I've read it appears that most religions and cultures have had a concept of duality for thousands of years. The book calls them Daemons which is what the Greek philosopher Socrates called his voice.

This other consciousness seems to have an ability to influence our minds by manipulating our thoughts and giving us ideas and impulses to do things. It's how they get us to do the things they want us to do in life which is quite normal as most Daemons are harmless and good. We're like the driver of the body and they're like a passenger/co-pilot guiding us.

Mine is unfortunately like yours, pure evil, he tortured me mentally and physically back in 2016, he messed with my mind which doctors diagnosed as psychosis because he made me believe things that were not real, he told me people were coming to hurt me and my family so I kept them all up one night because I thought these people were coming and I needed to protect them, the next morning my family called the emergency services and I was taken into hospital and spent nine days on a ward for acute mental disorders. This was how my Daemon first manifested as a voice but looking back he had been with me all my life, influencing me in negative ways a bit like yours does.

I was also a bit of a terror as a child especially to my older brother, I believe this was due to the influence of my Daemon, when we're younger we seem to act on every impulse and of course being oblivious to the existence of Daemons we think all these impulses are our own. When we grow older we tend not to act on every impulse as we have more experiences to tell us that these acts are wrong just like you know your impulses, thoughts and ideas about harming animals and people are wrong so you ignore them.

So that's where I believe all your negative thoughts are coming from, luckily you have the wisdom to not carry them out, not everybody does. As a voice hearer I have rare insight into these things and I can see in people, mostly people who've experienced psychosis or schizophrenia, the influence their Daemons have had on them, all these people lack is the awareness of them. I've had many conversations with my Daemon so I know him well, he's a complete sociopath and a psychopath that has nothing but hatred and contempt for me so we'll always be enemies, but knowing ones enemy is to win most of the battle.

In case you're interested the book I've mentioned is called 'The Daemon - A guide to your extraordinary secret self' by Anthony Peake.

It mainly focusses on the positive aspects of Daemons, how they've influenced mankind over the centuries for the better, where in the brain they exist, as I mentioned before it talks about religions and cultures that believe in duality and it explains some of the things they're capable of because they really are extraordinary.

If you want to discuss this any further I'd be more than happy to speak with you. Of course if you think I'm just a crazy old kook you're well within your rights to just ignore me.
 
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We all have such thoughts, in the end the fact that you realise what’s wrong about them it’s a good sign. Whenever I pass through a tough period I get overwhelmed by such thoughts.
 
Hopeful313

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I think I am an evil person, I used to see a psychologist and was diagnosed with OCD/anxiety etc. I have had bad thoughts for as long I can remember, they get worse when I'm bored/depressed. My therapist was convinced these were intrusive thoughts and not in line with my character, but she didn't understand I really feel like I'm evil sometimes.

I used to do evil things to my little brother when we were young, things that have traumatized him and I feel so guilty that I can't stand to be around him. When I got older and realized these things were wrong, I stopped them immediately and felt horrible after that. But I seem to have this evil side to me, I'm fascinated with serial killers and I have thoughts of hurting my family (and pets)

I obviously won't hurt them because I care about them but I have these thoughts like shutting the door on my cat when he's halfway out/in. I could be petting him and I hear this thought/voice like you should do something bad to him and then I become numb. I have thoughts of throwing my son down the stairs but again I won't...but I feel like they are not just thoughts but actual feelings and I should be locked up.
I used to think that way about myself. Don’t worry too much. Even healthy people get those thoughts. You do have intrusive thoughts.
I remember I used to hide all knives in the kitchen as a preventive measure so that I don’t go crazy all of a sudden and start stabbing someone around me. You won’t hurt anyone.
There are some medications that can help you. I’m so over those times thanks to medications and therapy.
please take care and seek professional help.
I hope you feel better soon.
 
ABell

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What I'm about to say is something that can't be expressed as fact, I have no physical proof, all I have is nearly four years of personal experience, my instincts and a book that was written by a man who believes the same as I do.

I believe that all humans (and possibly other species) share their bodies with another consciousness, two unique and independent minds sharing one body, quite a concept but not one that is completely my own, thanks to the book I've read it appears that most religions and cultures have had a concept of duality for thousands of years. The book calls them Daemons which is what the Greek philosopher Socrates called his voice.

This other consciousness seems to have an ability to influence our minds by manipulating our thoughts and giving us ideas and impulses to do things. It's how they get us to do the things they want us to do in life which is quite normal as most Daemons are harmless and good. We're like the driver of the body and they're like a passenger/co-pilot guiding us.

Mine is unfortunately like yours, pure evil, he tortured me mentally and physically back in 2016, he messed with my mind which doctors diagnosed as psychosis because he made me believe things that were not real, he told me people were coming to hurt me and my family so I kept them all up one night because I thought these people were coming and I needed to protect them, the next morning my family called the emergency services and I was taken into hospital and spent nine days on a ward for acute mental disorders. This was how my Daemon first manifested as a voice but looking back he had been with me all my life, influencing me in negative ways a bit like yours does.

I was also a bit of a terror as a child especially to my older brother, I believe this was due to the influence of my Daemon, when we're younger we seem to act on every impulse and of course being oblivious to the existence of Daemons we think all these impulses are our own. When we grow older we tend not to act on every impulse as we have more experiences to tell us that these acts are wrong just like you know your impulses, thoughts and ideas about harming animals and people are wrong so you ignore them.

So that's where I believe all your negative thoughts are coming from, luckily you have the wisdom to not carry them out, not everybody does. As a voice hearer I have rare insight into these things and I can see in people, mostly people who've experienced psychosis or schizophrenia, the influence their Daemons have had on them, all these people lack is the awareness of them. I've had many conversations with my Daemon so I know him well, he's a complete sociopath and a psychopath that has nothing but hatred and contempt for me so we'll always be enemies, but knowing ones enemy is to win most of the battle.

In case you're interested the book I've mentioned is called 'The Daemon - A guide to your extraordinary secret self' by Anthony Peake.

It mainly focusses on the positive aspects of Daemons, how they've influenced mankind over the centuries for the better, where in the brain they exist, as I mentioned before it talks about religions and cultures that believe in duality and it explains some of the things they're capable of because they really are extraordinary.

If you want to discuss this any further I'd be more than happy to speak with you. Of course if you think I'm just a crazy old kook you're well within your rights to just ignore me.
Well I am interested.
Question 1
Have you ever thought of expelling your daemon from your body?
Question 2
Have you heard of QHHT by Dolores C?
Question 3
Would you expel that daemon form your body through QHHT
I Have banished at least 3 daemons and bodyless spirits since my CQA session with Clinton W last year. I am positive there is no need to live with these things at all. We do have free will and we can choose to have our body minds and souls cleared of negative influences.
 
JustMe1982

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You can't be that evil if you feel bad about the thoughts you have had or the way you treated your brother. I think really messed up stuff because of my hearing voices and afraid they will hear me but it is absolutely nothing I would ever do.
 
EdEd

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You can't be that evil if you feel bad about the thoughts you have had or the way you treated your brother. I think really messed up stuff because of my hearing voices and afraid they will hear me but it is absolutely nothing I would ever do.
A lot of people including myself think of pretty messed up stuff , so I hear you and understand what your saying completely.
 
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