Hi @Phil10 i have OCD and how i deal with things concerning contamination is with dettol surface spray and the wooden floors are mopped with hot water and bleach the more you treat the worse the OCD gets.
One issue I’ve had is and I’ve mentioned before is something becoming “tainted” this includes people. For example six months ago my partner read my phone and seen I spoke to another women I said stuff I never meant but I worried the relationship had become “tainted” or not perfect anymore. Also I worry anybody from work I add on Facebook maybe I’ve spoke to them before too and said stuff i don’t mean? My ocd reaction has been to avoid like for example I don’t add them as a friend. The tainted feeling expands to germs i worry the ground is contaminated as the wheelie bin goes outside my ocd says “if I buy a new sofa and it lands on the ground” I can’t sit on the sofa due to bin germs. I know most of these feelings are irrational sure people can’t be tainted but my ocd says if I say something silly I can’t ever talk to that person again or my worry is I spoke to them before. So yes people here are prob ocd experts so perhaps someone can make sense of it for me. My recovery seems to be hated by the belief something is ruined, spoiled, tainted not the same. Like I do look at my life as a character and I worry my character is tainted if by some reason I had spoke to these people or my relationship she read stuff that wasn’t true I said someone was attractive but it was a lie? How can I change how I think about this?
One of the neighbours seemingly out my wheelie bin out I am annoyed at this as my partner was going shopping and I never wanted it left outside. The ocd is telling me it was my partners mum and she touched and contaminated the house but from what I heard she was never in the house only outside. This is the ocd train I go on I can’t be sure. Sure if I can’t confirm something or don’t see something it’s some what easier but it makes me feel uneasy knowing the bin was touched and we have no idea who it was I can’t really chap all the neighbours doors to check?
pure and nonn pure. i just go backwards and take my time to process information and correct my internal mess as much as i can and try to clear everything in my head and realize objects are just objects
The problem with ocd is that the obsession causes the compulsion...
Example.... what I have just touched is dirty.. compulsion - washing my hands gets rid of the dirt.
All we are truly doing is re-affirming the obsession and compulsive behaviour within our brains.
We can never truly get better till we learn to expose ourself and realise that we can never truly eliminate risk.
As someone that used to be traumatised by these rituals I can assure you that learning to accept some risk will make life a whole lot better and yourself happier