Also agree that it says more about those that give up on you.
Oh and I wish you would care about and value yourself.
I know this self-love malarkey is a long and tough journey.
But little by little i'm getting there and I know I love myself far more than I ever used to.
What helped me is imagining my inner child, seeing her for the sweet girl that she is/was and with that a feeling grew that I wanted to protect her from bad stuff..
Sorry if that sounds a bit nutty - different people take to different approaches, obviously.
We will need to help you with that I think,maybe get you out and about achieving some mastery over your phobias and anxiety.This will help you feel good and see yourself for the lovely,kind, caring woman that you are.You have been a brilliant mate to me and I value you a lot,sorry to hear you can't see your own worth right now but that will come soon I hope!Sorry you are low today again!