Every time the voices appear I become a shell of my formal self.

[Hello513]

In school I would be getting straight As in very tough courses, and then boom the voices would come, and I would fail having to retake the course or apply for a medical extension something in the beggining I was to stuborn to do.

Even after applying for medical extensions while I would pass my grades would still drop.

At work I would get fired for incompentency where as before I got great reviews by my bosses.

It destroyed otherwise happy and stable relationships causing no end of heartache to me.

I have been stable for sometime now. I think its been the longest since my first episode.

I have decent intelligence, and compentency when I am stable, but sometimes during episodes I cannot even hold down a normal conversation because I am to busy fending off the voices.

I become a shell of a person during an episode all the while tortured by these nasty evil sadistic voices.

Hopefully they never return, but if they do I have worked out little tricks to shorten the episodes over time.

I suppose if they ever do return I will just have to swallow my pride take time off, and get back into remmision before continuing my goals.

I don't want to live this way anymore, and if they return I will seek help. I will also make it clear to the voices they are not welcome, and use the same tricks that have worked in the past. By putting them to the test to show them for the damned liars they truly are, and forcing them to mock themselves by making them repeat what I want them to say.

They don't like when I do that, but screw them they are not welcome in my life anymore.

I am done letting them control my life.

 

[likesilencebutnotreallysilent]

I am glad to hear you are going to seek help! That sounds like a very painful thing to experience. It's good that you have found tricks to help. I hope you have an easier time dealing with it in the future because of this. Best wishes !!