Dark Angel 24
- Apr 17, 2019
- Warrington, UK
First off I want to explain that along with self harming, I have been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder and anxiety.
The past three months have been hell for me. I found out that my fiancé has lied to me on numerous occasions and he has cheated on me on numerous occasions. I just feel like I'm I'm a deep dark hole and honestly I just want to die. I love him so very much but he has hurt me so badly,that I just can't cope anymore. I haven't self harmed in almost 2 years and now I'm so numb that I don't care what happens to me.
I don't see the point of living anymore, I just keep getting hurt over and over again, not just by him but by life itself and I'm just too tired to fight anymore.
I've been doing this for over 30 years and just want it to be over
I wake up depressed and cry myself to sleep every night. I have done the meds, the therapy and nothing works.
I pray every night that I won't wake up and when I do I'm disappointed.
I'm in a new country,with no family ,no friends,I'm all alone as usual.
I just can't see a way out besides the obvious.