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Dark Angel 24

Dark Angel 24

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Apr 17, 2019
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9
Location
Warrington, UK
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First off I want to explain that along with self harming, I have been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder and anxiety.
The past three months have been hell for me. I found out that my fiancé has lied to me on numerous occasions and he has cheated on me on numerous occasions. I just feel like I'm I'm a deep dark hole and honestly I just want to die. I love him so very much but he has hurt me so badly,that I just can't cope anymore. I haven't self harmed in almost 2 years and now I'm so numb that I don't care what happens to me.
I don't see the point of living anymore, I just keep getting hurt over and over again, not just by him but by life itself and I'm just too tired to fight anymore.

I've been doing this for over 30 years and just want it to be over
I wake up depressed and cry myself to sleep every night. I have done the meds, the therapy and nothing works.
I pray every night that I won't wake up and when I do I'm disappointed.
I'm in a new country,with no family ,no friends,I'm all alone as usual.
I just can't see a way out besides the obvious.:help::help::hankie::hankie::hankie:
 
Fairy Lucretia

Fairy Lucretia

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Apr 9, 2011
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hi ,I just wanted to welcome you to the forum
im sorry you are going through so much and feeling so bad xxx
I hope you like it here and find the forum useful
lots of love
fairy Lu xxxxx
 
Dark Angel 24

Dark Angel 24

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Messages
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Location
Warrington, UK
Thanks, I'm pretty much done and I reached out for help,they called me and told me it wasn't serious enough and that I was being discharged. I give up,no one seems to care whether I live or die.
 
simonr1978

simonr1978

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Dec 22, 2018
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First off I want to explain that along with self harming, I have been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder and anxiety.
The past three months have been hell for me. I found out that my fiancé has lied to me on numerous occasions and he has cheated on me on numerous occasions. I just feel like I'm I'm a deep dark hole and honestly I just want to die. I love him so very much but he has hurt me so badly,that I just can't cope anymore. I haven't self harmed in almost 2 years and now I'm so numb that I don't care what happens to me.
I don't see the point of living anymore, I just keep getting hurt over and over again, not just by him but by life itself and I'm just too tired to fight anymore.

I've been doing this for over 30 years and just want it to be over
I wake up depressed and cry myself to sleep every night. I have done the meds, the therapy and nothing works.
I pray every night that I won't wake up and when I do I'm disappointed.
I'm in a new country,with no family ,no friends,I'm all alone as usual.
I just can't see a way out besides the obvious.:help::help::hankie::hankie::hankie:
View attachment 15714
First off I want to explain that along with self harming, I have been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder and anxiety.
The past three months have been hell for me. I found out that my fiancé has lied to me on numerous occasions and he has cheated on me on numerous occasions. I just feel like I'm I'm a deep dark hole and honestly I just want to die. I love him so very much but he has hurt me so badly,that I just can't cope anymore. I haven't self harmed in almost 2 years and now I'm so numb that I don't care what happens to me.
I don't see the point of living anymore, I just keep getting hurt over and over again, not just by him but by life itself and I'm just too tired to fight anymore. I understand where you're coming from, I

I've been doing this for over 30 years and just want it to be over
I wake up depressed and cry myself to sleep every night. I have done the meds, the therapy and nothing works.
I pray every night that I won't wake up and when I do I'm disappointed.
I'm in a new country,with no family ,no friends,I'm all alone as usual.
I just can't see a way out besides the obvious.:help::help::hankie::hankie::hankie:
 
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Pollypop

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Jul 23, 2015
Messages
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Location
England. Derbyshire
Dark Angel, I hope you have managed to get some help.
To say you were not serious enough is awful.

Who did you contact, and who phoned you?

Am here if you want to talk.
 
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Ezq

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Joined
Jun 17, 2020
Messages
6
Location
Shenzhen
Hi I moved to a new country as well and after a year of trying my Fiancé left me. I'm still deeply in love with him. I tried to kill myself in front of him. It just couldn't handle my emotions. I understand how your feeling.
 
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