Emptiness feels fine but it's not where I'd want to be

esckeyisbroken

esckeyisbroken

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#1
Hi everyone.

I'm glad a place like this exists. It seems to have a really cosy vibe and one of the most supportive communities I've seen online.

I can't say I struggle with anything specific since it seems like I'm feeling alright. Or rather, I don't feel sad or anxious or desperate like many others do.

However, it looks like I'm not entirely okay. Well, I suppose I can't be totally okay while having to take meds for my schizoaffective disorder :) I feel like big chunks of my personality are missing and I'm wondering whether it's possible to redevelop them again.

I'm here for many reasons, some of which I'll probably cover in other posts. In the meantime, just know that I'm happy to be on this forum and I hope I won't abandon it anytime soon.

Thanks everyone who took their time to read this :)

Take care.

PS: Does anyone know why I can't attach pictures to the post? The file name appears crossed out.
 
blacksmoke

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hello and welcome esckeyisbroken ah dunno but yeah perserverance and insight go a long way to changing ourselves.

we do change over time some good some not so good. life can change our heart is the best way to say it i guess. and yes i have been trying to change something for the longest and just recently i have moments where i am seeing a breakthrough
 
esckeyisbroken

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Thanks for replying, blacksmoke :)

You're right, insight into the problem and consistent work towards solving it is often all that it takes to get better.

I'm glad you've noticed an improvement in what you've been trying to change :) Keep up the good work!
 
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sometimes i think with these kinda forums is that it all so simple and its not beause so many things get in the way. but yeah the base line is what i mentioned but life can and does get in the way but if i remind myself of what i call the baseline then when i remember ....
 
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I never know if i feel like i have no personality because of depression or medication. I have bipolar disorder and find that when mood elevates, i feel very different to the grey mood i feel lately. I know also that my medication does take chunks of me away too. It is a constant testing of medication dosage to see what makes me feel best.