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kim0123

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So I am working on hopefully working again, soon.

It's been a few years since I have worked. I'm not even sure how long it's been. The last few jobs I worked at, I only worked a week at most, one just a day.

I'm currently applying for help. I never wanted to. It doesn't feel real. I always wanted to do well for myself. I grew up poor.

When I had to close my first bank account, due to no longer needing it, I felt defeated.

On a daily basis, I feel irrelevant in this society because I don't have a title or a job to flaunt. I feel like people judge others based on these things. I try not to care, I feel good sometimes, but guilty a lot.

I feel overwhelmed and scared around people. I really struggle with interacting.

I hate authority. (I am learning why as I write and talk with others).

I have debt. I rely on my partner to support me. I feel bad about myself.
 
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GioTheEnigma

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I share your sentiments. I'm sorry this has happened to you. I haven't worked in 9 years and rely on my parents despite being 32 years old.

I tried seeking employment again several times only to fall back into my old habits of working on a so called "novel" that I'm probably never going to actually write.

Last time I worked a job, I quit after 6 hours. My answer to my employer as to why was "I just can't."

I hope your attempts at reentering the workforce are more successful than mine have been. I wish you the best of luck.

I also hate authority. Though for me, I'm not entirely sure why that is. I can concoct theories I suppose. You mentioned in your post that you've been writing and figuring out why you hate authority. Mind sharing?

No pressure or anything.
 
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kim0123

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I share your sentiments. I'm sorry this has happened to you. I haven't worked in 9 years and rely on my parents despite being 32 years old.

I tried seeking employment again several times only to fall back into my old habits of working on a so called "novel" that I'm probably never going to actually write.

Last time I worked a job, I quit after 6 hours. My answer to my employer as to why was "I just can't."

I hope your attempts at reentering the workforce are more successful than mine have been. I wish you the best of luck.

I also hate authority. Though for me, I'm not entirely sure why that is. I can concoct theories I suppose. You mentioned in your post that you've been writing and figuring out why you hate authority. Mind sharing?

No pressure or anything.
Well, I believe it has something to do with a lack of respect for my parents, as one was extremely abusive, damaged my whole family and then we left from (far from) - and a broken mother who needed babying from then on...

I acted out a bit in grade school, likely due to stress at home, but instead of getting necessary help or guidance, I was punished again and again.

I've never liked feeling pushed down for silly reasons or being controlled. Likely due to not needing my parents at a young age (learning I was better off as an independent). I have good morals and don't need to be flooded by opinions that have turned into laws.

I also feel the government/law is a group of corrupt people who have flaws just like all people - so it is discomforting being controlled by imperfect people who are possibly more cruel and evil than the general population.
 
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kim0123

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I share your sentiments. I'm sorry this has happened to you. I haven't worked in 9 years and rely on my parents despite being 32 years old.

I tried seeking employment again several times only to fall back into my old habits of working on a so called "novel" that I'm probably never going to actually write.

Last time I worked a job, I quit after 6 hours. My answer to my employer as to why was "I just can't."

I hope your attempts at reentering the workforce are more successful than mine have been. I wish you the best of luck.

I also hate authority. Though for me, I'm not entirely sure why that is. I can concoct theories I suppose. You mentioned in your post that you've been writing and figuring out why you hate authority. Mind sharing?

No pressure or anything.
Also, thank you for your kind words.
 
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GioTheEnigma

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Yup. I feel much the same. My mother was very verbally abusive, my father neglectful, and I suspect both have very low IQ's and little to no education.

From the time I was 11 I already knew that they were wrong about most things and listening to them was a bad idea.

I share your law enforcement opinion, though I do believe there are many good public servants who do well and mean well and are hopefully less flawed than myself.

I guess I, and perhaps you, have extrapolated our animosity for the authority of our parents, who's guidance, assuming it was even present, we knew to be inferior to our own, onto the rest of humanity.
 
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kim0123

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Yup. I feel much the same. My mother was very verbally abusive, my father neglectful, and I suspect both have very low IQ's and little to no education.

From the time I was 11 I already knew that they were wrong about most things and listening to them was a bad idea.

I share your law enforcement opinion, though I do believe there are many good public servants who do well and mean well and are hopefully less flawed than myself.

I guess I, and perhaps you, have extrapolated our animosity for the authority of our parents, who's guidance, assuming it was even present, we knew to be inferior to our own, onto the rest of humanity.
Perhaps, but I learned not only from my parents, that I don't need other's opinions on right and wrong shoved down my throat. Wisdom is one thing, but control another. I'm just as worthy as anyone, and I'm intelligent enough to know how to exist as the peaceful being I am, unless I am defending something in passion. I can speak loudly if necessary.
 
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