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Embarrassment after psychosis

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thunderstruck

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I had my first and hopefully last psychosis earlier this year, the doctors said the cause was most likely lack of sleep. Now several months after the psychosis I'm dealing with maximum level embarrassment over how I behaved (loud & paranoid). Only a few people saw me like that but still I get constant flashbacks of how it was. I thankfully didn't post anything on social media and I'm not going to see the people who saw me while psychotic ever again but still the feeling of shame & embarrassment continues.

I've recovered well otherwise but the thought of having lost control is literally the first thing I think about after waking up every morning. Has anyone had similar experiences?
 
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Oh yes, I have recently. Two weeks ago I had my first experience with it. Unlike you there were other people besides family who saw it. I actually went outside in my PJs, knocked on doors and yelled at the neighbors! Mind we live in a very nice and very quiet neighborhood.....plus they all know me, I'm a mum with two kids and always appeared normal so you can imagine the embarrassment. I'm currently back on meds and staying with in laws to recover but going back home on Saturday and the idea of having to face everyone is horrible. I keep having flashbacks too. It's awful isn't it 😕
 
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That sucks. I know how that feels... to be overcome with cringey feelings from the way you acted. My anxiety manifests like this after big events (most recently my daughter’s birthday).
Whenever I get stuck with reoccurring thoughts that are freaking me out or I’m stressing over I “cancel” them. I think of my brain being like a computer, and my thoughts are all different window tabs open.. and if one isn’t any good I click the red x and close the window. Cancel all those negative thoughts. Cause like you said you’ll never have to see any of those people again anyways.
 
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@thunderstruck hopefully it was just a one off due to exhaustion. Some people only ever suffer one episode and recover, but i fully appreciate the embarrassment of the realisation and memories of what happened. They will tho in time become distant memories and hopefully if you have understanding family and friends will be able to see the funny side of your escapade while unwell
 
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I am the crazy lady in my neighborhood, and with family during a psychotic episode. I am so embarrassed and feel such shame it is impossible to get over.

Now with the holidays coming up My family wants to see me. But who are they really going to be seeing. My neighbors are festive for the Holidays-I am not part of it.

I fear I will act out again-so pitiful. I try so hard to be normal. It just never happens that way. I know just what you are feeling and I understand. Hope for all of us . Jules
 
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