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lyla
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I have always had a problem with food. I'm not skinny, I'm 5"4 and weigh about 11 stone 7. Over the last couple of years I have had some issues surrounding depression etc. My weight went down to about 10 stone. Now as I'm getting over the depression I have put on weight again 
I have started hating myself for eating. I feel good if I dont eat but I can never keep it up, and have started to get depressed again because I'm eating too much. I hate myself for getting this way again. I have started drinking again by myself and wanting to self harm.
I made the desision to stop taking the drugs they made me take to combat the depression, they wernt doing anything. I came out the otherside by myself... but I don't want to slip back in.
Its a crazy mixture of wanting to be better, but knowing that when I was 'ill' I liked my body so much more.
Hmmmm not really sure where I was heading with this post..
.. keeps me occupied I suppose!
Lyla
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I have started hating myself for eating. I feel good if I dont eat but I can never keep it up, and have started to get depressed again because I'm eating too much. I hate myself for getting this way again. I have started drinking again by myself and wanting to self harm.
I made the desision to stop taking the drugs they made me take to combat the depression, they wernt doing anything. I came out the otherside by myself... but I don't want to slip back in.
Its a crazy mixture of wanting to be better, but knowing that when I was 'ill' I liked my body so much more.
Hmmmm not really sure where I was heading with this post..

Lyla
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