- May 14, 2019
- North Carolina
I’ve been stuck lately. I went through a binge drinking phase after i was sexually assaulted and i haven’t let myself drink in excess since then. I discovered that I drank so much so I didn’t have to deal with the assault and the issues it brought back. I drank yesterday. I got drunk yesterday. I tried absinthe and i didn’t like it. I hate alcohol but I can’t say no when it’s offered to me. I want to self destruct I want to get drunk, I want to be oblivious to the world around me and to have an excuse for feeling so sad and empty. Sorry this is sad but I am stuck and lonely even though I have people in my life I know love me. I don’t want their love.