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Dreaming about putting myself in hospital

Justafriend95

Justafriend95

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Waking up shaking and sweating because you dreamed so bad.. just took meds to calm me down because I'm going to pass out of I don't

Ugh today is horrible 😭
 
Justafriend95

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Slept all day and all night. Took 3 times as much needs as I normally do. But slept like an angel.

High as fuck but feel a bit better
 
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Paul Shipman Smith

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There are both professional and self-help methods which you can use in order to overcome all of this negativity in your life. Have you received counselling/psychological therapy before?
Making arrangements through your local health service to see a counsellor will be a helpful start.
A counsellor will help you to slowly identify the cause of why you feel this way. You can also write things down in a 'journal', which will be similar to what you are writing on this site. It's another way of expressing those inner feelings.
The subject of 'self-harm' is an area that will need to be discussed with a counsellor or other health professional and there are likely to be many professional opinions on the subject.
For many of us, self-harm is about releasing those pent-up emotions. The pain will 'mask' away the powerful - yet negative feelings - that are trapped inside. You are likely to be experiencing this yourself.
We can view self-harm like a pressure cooker releasing steam. The steam builds inside and needs to be released.
The emotions build inside. The anger builds inside. You hurt yourself in the hope that it will release those feelings inside. If you leave the pressure cooker on, it will eventually blow unless you turn the heat down.
The counselling will help you to calm - and understand - your emotions.
Reading further along your post. You say that your life is not worth it, that you're done and you only hurt people. You also wish that you weren't here anymore.
We often feel this way when in this depressive state of mind.
We often find that we compare ourselves to other people. We can feel.....''They are happier than me.....They have more than me......''
Depression can exaggerate these feelings and so can the isolation associated with it. What then follows are the feelings worthlessness and that life is pointless.
However. All of this can be discussed in therapy and a plan can be put together in order to help you deal with these negative feelings.
The counselling will also enable you to explore your issues with regard to not wanting to feel anymore. This can be a way of masking what you really feel and you can work with the counsellor on that.
Then there are ways to help yourself to deal with your situation.
You mention in your post a very difficult part of your journey which involves you looking at self-harm pictures. Presumably this 'rabbit hole' is a website with these pictures on it.
The internet is brilliant. Information at your fingertips. Unfortunately, for someone in your situation, you may find yourself tempted to view stuff that encourages your self-harming.
When the urge to view these images of self-harm come to your attention. Walk away from the computer or put the phone/tablet down and go for a walk. It may be difficult to do so when it is dark for example and you may not feel safe. Just get away from the internet at this point.
If its daytime. Go for a long walk or a run. Try to separate yourself from the internet. Watch TV, read. Find something else to do.
Going for that walk and just sitting in a cafe for half an hour can reduce that isolated feeling. Even if sitting alone and others seem to be in pairs or groups, it is better than just staying in home.
Train yourself to use the internet for learning other things. Try to fight the urge to look at these negative images. Try it for one day. Then try for another. If you give in to the temptation, just accept the mistake and continue to fight that urge.
On the subject of your dreams. Due to your depression, it is likely that you may find yourself experiencing vivid dreams (or even nightmares) and these dreams may have a sleepwalking effect - such as the thrashing about because the dream is so real.
Try making sure that the bed you sleep in is clear of heavy obstacles such as ornaments or the television.
Breaking a prize ornament or the new TV during an 'active' dream will only add more stress to your life........Not a good start to your morning.......
When you experience these vivid dreams, it might be better for your husband to stand back for a while and let you calm down. Then comfort you afterwards.
Your counsellor will be able to advise on remedies for this and help you with sleeping difficulties.
You also mention your friend nearly dying.
A bad situation - such as illness or death - involving someone close to us can encourage even more negative emotions because of the heartbreak.
However. Times like these can allow us to focus on the journey to recovery. We can sometimes reflect on our own lives and start to see at least a small amount of positive light.
 
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