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Dreaming about putting myself in hospital

Justafriend95

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I literally dreamed that I was walking to the kitchen. Did it and had to go to hospital. Once I was there I got admitted but my husband wouldn't let me go.

So I punched him yelling and screaming..
(He was trying to wake me up and I almost hit him for real).

I feel like losing all controle..
I did overdose a bit last night because I could handle my friend almost dying yesterday..

I feel so bad..
 
Justafriend95

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I feel like I'm trapped in my own head. I want something I need something but I don't know what..

I'm so happy.. I need sh
I can't but I need it so so bad..
 
Justafriend95

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Just found myself a fucking rabbit hole with pictures that are no good for me but I just keep watching..
 
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I made a new friend today his name is Henk
Thanks for flying by and save travels
 
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midnightphoenix

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I literally dreamed that I was walking to the kitchen. Did it and had to go to hospital. Once I was there I got admitted but my husband wouldn't let me go.

So I punched him yelling and screaming..
(He was trying to wake me up and I almost hit him for real).

I feel like losing all controle..
I did overdose a bit last night because I could handle my friend almost dying yesterday..

I feel so bad..
i am so sorry, justafriend :hug:
 
Justafriend95

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Today is really hard. I can't sh. So just did some mild sh but also overdosed a little. Got really high and fell finally Asleep day 3 in bed
 
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wollie

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Sorry you are feeling this way, I know nothing about self harm so I can't help you I can only send you lots of hugs and wish you better,
All the best woolie.
 
Justafriend95

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Sorry you are feeling this way, I know nothing about self harm so I can't help you I can only send you lots of hugs and wish you better,
All the best woolie.
Thank you I can use that
 
Justafriend95

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I'm done with this shit...
Fuck my life is not worth it.
Am a fucking peace of shit.. I only hurt people and I can't help it but fuck up all the time..

Sometimes I wish I wasn't here anymore
 
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Justafriend-think of the friend (bird) you made the other day. Your a life worth living. I am so sorry you get tangled up. You are not just a piece of shit.

What pictures were you looking at that was like a rabbit hole? You are such a fantastic photographer. Keep taking photos and share them with us.

Do you know what seems to trigger your feelings? For the past two days I could not move or put two words together it was horrible AND then I realized I did not take my medication. Today I feel just okay.

Feel better Hugs Jules
 
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Justafriend-think of the friend (bird) you made the other day. Your a life worth living. I am so sorry you get tangled up. You are not just a piece of shit.

What pictures were you looking at that was like a rabbit hole? You are such a fantastic photographer. Keep taking photos and share them with us.

Do you know what seems to trigger your feelings? For the past two days I could not move or put two words together it was horrible AND then I realized I did not take my medication. Today I feel just okay.

Feel better Hugs Jules
I was looking at sh pictures of really really bad selfharm like an pro Anna for sh.

IDK anymore what is triggering my feelings.. I just don't want to feel anymore.

I will take pictures for you.

Take care
 
midnightphoenix

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you are amazing, justafriend, i do wish you could stop self harms i know the urges are bad but you deserve to heal from self harms :grouphug:
 
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sorry to hear about your friend

also Henk is lovely !

:grouphug: :goodluck::loveshower:
 
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