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Down the Darkening Hole

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DyingDragon6

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Well I had my first session today, I was supposed to have it on the 24th but appearently my appointment didn't go thru and I walked all the way from my house to the counselling center for no fkn reason. Thankfully they got it all fixed up and I had my appointment today and I got to take the bus instead of walking there. I can't really say much about my therapist because I just met her but she's just fresh off grad school and that was her first day there, hopefully they didn't make a mistake because she might not be able to deal with my issues the way I need them to be. But that's not what pissed me off today, no what pissed me off today was that someone there, either my therapist or the receptionist called the police to check on me to make sure I didn't want to hurt myself. Now I don't mind if someone is concerned about me and they ask about it to my face but calling the police to come and check if I'm not going to harm myself is just asking for me to absolutely blow my lid and become the sarcastic bitch I can sometimes be. I despise with my whole being pity and being coddled like some fkn invalid crazy person! I'll be calling my therapist tomorrow about it that's for sure, and if she wants me to continue going to that place she'd either better stop with the damn pity or tell the person who called the police to stop or I'll tell them off for it and it won't be pleasent!
 
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Dragon, I can see that as frustrating! That was how they show they are concerned and care even if it it's irritating, they want to see that you are ok.
 
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I can see why you are annoyed @DyingDragon6 and that would annoy me too but @TulipIceCream is right, they are just showing concern although they would have been better talking to you about it. I'd calmly explain how its not the way to get you on board and how the therapeutic relationship must be built on trust - and that door swings both ways.
 
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Dragon, I can see that as frustrating! That was how they show they are concerned and care even if it it's irritating, they want to see that you are ok.
Oh no it was because my therapist thought my test for her was an actual threat! Like I'm actually stupid enough to threaten someone in the healthcare position? No my threapist was completely new and even though I told her I don't trust her, I told her I can be a cunning manipulative lier and that I would be watching her, challenging her, and testing her to see if she was the right therapist for me, she failed with flying colors. She told the head counselor I told her not to wear any pink or smell like peach because they were "triggers" for bad memories, clearly she wasn't paying any attention because the notebook I gave her to read had loads of pink in it and I was drinking peach water the whole time I was with her. I told my therapist that if she did either of those two things I wring her out for it. Instead of telling me she was going to wear whatever she wanted or even going through with it and not wear pink that would have been the right answer and she would have passed, instead she got too scared and ratted on me so I had to tell the head counselor that it was a test and that the therapist I was given needs a few more years in school relearning what reverse psychology is. They said I'm not allowed back because I'm "too much to handle" yeah right!
 
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I can see why you are annoyed @DyingDragon6 and that would annoy me too but @TulipIceCream is right, they are just showing concern although they would have been better talking to you about it. I'd calmly explain how its not the way to get you on board and how the therapeutic relationship must be built on trust - and that door swings both ways.
I told my therapist I didn't trust her, I told her I was going to be watching her closely and testing her, that I would be challenging her. She honestly thought I was going to hit her if she wore pink around me, like really I'm not that stupid to hit someone over something so small. If she had been actually paying attention to my wording and what I was doing when I said what I did she would have realized I was testing her, for fks sake I was almost ready to burst into laughter at the look on her face when I told her not to wear pink near me. I honestly could care less if you wear pink just don't ask me to wear the color. It's a shame because I actually like the little shorty I got but she would make a better friend than an actual therapist, really she was just starting and they stuck her with me, not exactly the greatest to start out with, I know I can be quite the handful to deal with. But really I told her exactly what I wanted from her and she utterly failed. I already had reservations about going to that center because I went there in the past and they utterly sucked last time so I did go there with the highest of hopes, but oh well I just guess that that place isn't what I need so I'll continue looking.
 
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Oh no it was because my therapist thought my test for her was an actual threat! Like I'm actually stupid enough to threaten someone in the healthcare position? No my threapist was completely new and even though I told her I don't trust her, I told her I can be a cunning manipulative lier and that I would be watching her, challenging her, and testing her to see if she was the right therapist for me, she failed with flying colors. She told the head counselor I told her not to wear any pink or smell like peach because they were "triggers" for bad memories, clearly she wasn't paying any attention because the notebook I gave her to read had loads of pink in it and I was drinking peach water the whole time I was with her. I told my therapist that if she did either of those two things I wring her out for it. Instead of telling me she was going to wear whatever she wanted or even going through with it and not wear pink that would have been the right answer and she would have passed, instead she got too scared and ratted on me so I had to tell the head counselor that it was a test and that the therapist I was given needs a few more years in school relearning what reverse psychology is. They said I'm not allowed back because I'm "too much to handle" yeah right!
Bloody hell @DyingDragon6, your post made me lol, particularly "she failed with flying colours". :)

Clearly she couldn't handle you, but you ARE treating it like a game of sorts and doing what I do with MH professionals and being adversarial. Can you cut the next one a break?
 
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Bloody hell @DyingDragon6, your post made me lol, particularly "she failed with flying colours". :)

Clearly she couldn't handle you, but you ARE treating it like a game of sorts and doing what I do with MH professionals and being adversarial. Can you cut the next one a break?
Hey at least I made you laugh!
I'll try to tone it down next time, but no guarantees I don't make promises I know I can't keep.

Also I don't think she would have been able to handle anyone else, that was her first day there and she said she was fresh out of grad school, clearly she needs more schooling or some more hands on experience like interning or something.
 
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Bloody hell @DyingDragon6, your post made me lol, particularly "she failed with flying colours". :)

Clearly she couldn't handle you, but you ARE treating it like a game of sorts and doing what I do with MH professionals and being adversarial. Can you cut the next one a break?
Also I'm not treating it like a game, in the past whenever I got a new therapist I would always do 2 or 3 tests to make sure I wasn't going to walk all over them, that they could handle me and be a challenge. She failed the first so badly that I don't even want to try with that place again. I will be calling my PCP and see if she can get someone from the clinic I usually go to to take me on since they have a whole section of the clinic that's for therapy sessions.
 
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