- Jan 26, 2012
- In a living nightmare!!
I hate myself so much, I can't even begin to explain exactly how much I despise myself!!! Every day it seems so much more intense than the day before!! This body is disgusting!! I can't live with these memories!! I can't change how my thoughts frighten me every minute of everyday!! I don't really feel like I have an identity and I am petrified of being me!! I want to be invisible and just be eyes floating around!! I want company but I don't want people to see me!! It's torture!! I am sorry to bug anyone with this rubbish, It is so lonely and frightening to have all of this inside me and not being able to talk to anyone because I am so concerned that no one will understand or will judge me!! I would love to detach my mind from this awful, disgusting, revolting, hideous body I have been cursed with!!!! Everything hurts!! No matter how much I cry, it all just hurts!! Can anyone hear me? Can anyone help me, please?? I don't know what to do?