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halflife
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basically i have 5moths left of college and i am seriously not coping!
I am so far behind on my work...I have no motivation and my social anxiety makes it extremely difficult when asking for help with assignments and it's seriously stressing me out
I just dont feel bright enough anymore...
yesterday I was at my friends and I started panicking really badly and before I knew it I was screaming very loudly then crying and shaking uncontrolably for about an hour! this resulted in me getting veryy drunk all day to block everything out and now my best mate probably thinks im nuts! great...
Also, 2 weeks a go I took an overdose because I was getting so stressed out about having to face people everyday...I hate the feeling of dread I get every morning and the fact that I cant even sleep now makes it worse because im up all night thinking about it!
I know that I really should just quit college as its having a serious affect on my mental health but it seems like such a waste! and im scared i'll just get even more depressed with nothing to do and I have interviews for university next month.... but if im like this in college I know i'll never cope in uni!
I honestly dont know what to do
I know I only have 5months left but that can feel like an eternity when depressed.
any advice?
x
I am so far behind on my work...I have no motivation and my social anxiety makes it extremely difficult when asking for help with assignments and it's seriously stressing me out

yesterday I was at my friends and I started panicking really badly and before I knew it I was screaming very loudly then crying and shaking uncontrolably for about an hour! this resulted in me getting veryy drunk all day to block everything out and now my best mate probably thinks im nuts! great...

Also, 2 weeks a go I took an overdose because I was getting so stressed out about having to face people everyday...I hate the feeling of dread I get every morning and the fact that I cant even sleep now makes it worse because im up all night thinking about it!
I know that I really should just quit college as its having a serious affect on my mental health but it seems like such a waste! and im scared i'll just get even more depressed with nothing to do and I have interviews for university next month.... but if im like this in college I know i'll never cope in uni!
I honestly dont know what to do

I know I only have 5months left but that can feel like an eternity when depressed.
any advice?
x