I want to increase the dosage of Lamictal 10 fold to die. I can't. I'm on Tegretol, Abilify, Valdoxan and only 25 mg of Lamictal. Today we increased it to 50 mg. I have to be slow since I had an allergic reaction to it in the past. Then I want to increase the dosage of Valdoxan if it could help any. Or I want to add seroquel to the mixture or alcohol or any other thing. I'm very angry. I'm soooo very angry that again and again I'm down. Again. My mom is staying with me right now. I wish she wasn't. Then I would increase the dosage of Lamictal. I hate saying this but I'm down again. I hate. I need a fast drug. I don't have the patience. I'm done with this disorder. That's really enough. This is not fair. I have to be patient. I don't want to call my pdoc again. What can he do, nothing. I have to wait but I'm really angry ( I want to broke all the walls of every building. I know I can't and actually I don't have the energy. There is no right combination for me. Lamictal was good but I can't increase the dosage fastly. It may take months. I hate myself and the life. No taste, nothing. Nothing.