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Hannah007

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This happened twice to me. Both times I was with my mum climbing a mountain. The first time was during the summer and I was really happy. My mum told me vaguely where we wete going. I wasn't happy with the answer. I let her walk on with my brothers and sister. I stayed put. I was annoyed. Something got into my mind telling me to stay put. I don't know what it was but it wasn't me. I was fuming. Eventually my mum returned to get me. I wanted to give out hell to her. Instead I tried restraining myself and taking deep breaths. It was really hard to not rage at her. Then at lunch she was being vague again about where we were going. I could it coming on me again. Instead I just let it go. Afterwards a joke was made of my behaviour. Secretly I was confused because I never act like that. I just brushed it off. It was like something in my mind was telling me to get mad.
The second time she was being vague about instructions again. I let her walk with everyone else. I could feel it coming on me. She rang me and told me to come up. I decided I had enough, that I didn't want what happened to me before to happen again. I said you didn't give clear instructions and you're taking me for granted. I returned home. She begged me to come up. I hung up. I knew that if I went up to her something would get me annoyed. So I felt I had to leave.
Later we talked. I spilled my heart out about exam pressure, being taken for granted and how I'm expected to be smart and obedient child while my sister is allowed to get in a huff. She basically told me I should've come up.
I'm just really confused because I never act like that. It's like I suddenly changed, it wasn't me making decisions for me and someone tool over my mind to make bad decisions. Can somebody help? Sorry for the extremely long post.
 
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Hi Hannah, Sound like the stress causing these sorts of feelings. I try to stop myself boiling over sometimes, but If im stressed and feel hard done to I just can't stop myself.
 
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Stress makes me impatient and irritable with others. This is called bipolar disorder. I don't really know what that means. I'm like this on and off. Are you like this on and off? Keep a journal to see what you feel like and what is happening at the time. Your sleep pattern is very useful to keep record of.
 
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Hello and :welcome:

I can become very irritable with others, especially when instructions are given vaguely in a situation where you kind of need to know what's happening - like a hike, which is something that makes you hot and sticky in the first place.

I know where you're coming from, and you've done really well to control it the first time by taking deep breaths - I think you'd be good to practise that more often in day-to-day life, then hopefully it'll become second nature to you.

It might also be a good idea to make a note of the things that trigger you, so you can maybe identify patterns in what makes you feel this way - which you might not have done otherwise.

May I ask how old you are?

Hope you find the forum useful and supportive.
 
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Hannah007

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Thanks for the replies everyone. I might've thought it was stress only the first time I wasn't under any pressure at all. That was more than 6 months ago and probably the least stressful time of my life as a student. I'm not like this on and off. It rarely happens to me. I'm scared that it'll happen again and I'll have no control over myself. I normally don't have an irregular sleep pattern. I'll try controlling myself more and identify patterns. I'm 18. Thanks for the replies. Much appreciated.
 
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